lalalandd

old phone, but new phone for me :DD

2008-12-06T12:26:00.003+08:00

4th december; thursday.
barbara's birthday :D
went out with dear and his family to ikea to get a new sofa, then went to downtown
east's cathay cinema to watch "bolt" ! the movie is not bad eh :) throughout the whole
day, dear and i, quarreled COUNTLESS-LY D: lols. joke sia. damn it ! ah ha !
cathay's popcorns are soooooo sweet and yummy ! compared to goldenvillage's D:
tadaaa. :D

yesterday; 5th
went over to parkway with dear to find my mother. ate pastamania. damn long nvr
eat le ! always got no money :( after meeting my mom, she continued my singtel plan.
actually i liked this sony ericsson W902 D: but its NEW ! sooo damn ex :(

ended up getting this W910i ! LOL $0 plan D:

nvm la huh. phone also good. i took bronze colour. nice but camera is only 2 mega pixels.

hahahaha. D:

mother said that im just a student, no nid a super good phone D: lalalala !

anyway, phone get spoiled easily, so its pointless getting a expensive phone D:

I MISS MY CLIQUE :D

damn it, meet me laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

I MISS BAOBEI TOO :D

after meeting for 1 time, not enuf laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

I MISS DEAR ALSO :D

meet, quarrel, meet, quarrel. still want meet laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

today is the day to get screen protector :DDDDDDDD !!

happy happy, MET baobei :D

2008-12-03T20:27:00.001+08:00

today ! 3rd december.
didnt meet clique. as brother was sending his bro to army, didnt meet up with jiaen and
singhong twinnie due to brothers absence. T_T !!
well, i went to tampines to meet blog shoppers. whoo ! met the 1st person at 12,didnt noticed
that one of the blogshopper is actually [ivan] my primary school's sister ! althou i cannot
recognise her straight away, she knew that it was me. haha. i feel kinda bad for not recognising
her straight away. after that, i walked to tampiness mall to slack for an hour cuz im meeting
another one at 1pm. on my way to tm, a guy who is on this charity thingy asked me for
donations, he said that my hair is nice !!! hahah ! thanks dear ;D my hair stylist. haha. wink
wink*
then after meeting the person at 1pm, rachel baobei came to meet me !! :DDDDDDD
waited for her bout an hour :D well, i felt that i was sooo patience today. must be i had trained
my patience whenever im with dear ! D: LOL !!! =x lalalalalalala. so happy :D
we ate long john silver ! haha. thanks to dear's KPOness, i got to meet baobei ! hoho.
we kinda got crazy in "toys-r-us", playing freebies, kids piano, throwing balls, laughing.
awww, felt like we were in the past. futhermore, she dyed hair too ! hehe. walked for so long..
then baobei need to meet her friends at parkway, then i returned home :D
happy happy today, thanks baobei .

edited pictures ! resized too.

me and baobei in kids sunglasses. that was so fun :D

say hello to barney ! :D
and, at the bus stop waiting for bus. haha

got more pictures, BUT im too ugly. LOL ! no viewing of ugly pictures ok !

miss the fun we had tgt from the past, althou now its kinda dunno wad to talk about, i still

love it :D

thanks to my dear :D IMY ! stupid NS... :(

and, I MISS MY CLIQUE 4 !!!!!

I WANT SONY ERICSSON W902, anybody wanna buy for me ? winkwink*

im going to search for new blogskin ! CUZ MOZILLA FIREFOX CANT VIEW MY SKIN ! D:

2008-12-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

OVERLOADED SADNESS *
my clique didnt reply my sms for tomorrow's outing. :(
burst ! out of 3, only 1 replied. T_T !!
they dont want me anymore.
waiting for jiaen&singhong's reply.
waiting :(

anyway, im happy too that dear passed his IPPT. lols.
bloody, lied to me at first that he failed... but i was happy
that he didnt actually failed.
tadaa ! I WANT SUBWAY !! my tuna sandwich and ice lemon tea drink !
and i feel like audition-ing now. HACK the audi NPCs to death :D

cant wait for outing with dear or the cliques. because, im bored staying
at home ! ITS HOLIDAY ! its a no way staying at home thing ok ! SAD !
and i regretted not working. its no income now lor. damn it ! 1 week only
10bucks allowance. the rest, dear takecare of me. wuuuhahahhaha ! =x
but that is BAD man ! hope this year, my uncle prepared a christmas present
for me ! :D

i miss KBOX !

2008-11-29T22:43:00.001+08:00

back for blogging after soooo many days uh !
my blog... features more about my............................ AHBOY ! :D

what's this ? chicken drumsticks ?

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MR COCOA.

he's actually silverish okay.
he's a sexy model with a short bunny tail. and he's super fluffy !

my lovely ahboy, sleeping in a position of a dog ! :D eyes half closed. lols.
actually, even if i dont have a pet dog, im happy to have cocoa with me. he's behaving

like a dog... which bites cupboards, run, eat and uses "toilet". he knows where to pee

and shit at. he knows exactly like a pet dog. but he cant respond when ppl calls him. lols.

most importantly, HE DONT BARK ! i wonder why rabbit dont make noises. its so sad

when they needs something but human dont understand.

anyway, my ahboy is incredible. he even went to the toilet to shit. LOL. self learnt toilet.

so damn cute.

lalala. catched hana yori dango in www.mysoju.com ! :D

its called liu xing hua yuan in chinese and its meteor gardens in english.

AHH ! japan acting is definitely more BETTER than the taiwan disgusting F4.

japan got more handsome guys. winkwink* [dear dont jealous =x]

currently dont watch korean dramas, cuz all actor and actresses are OLD. not appealing =x

SOMETHING SURPRISINGLY !, my real blood brother wanna bring me out to KTV today !

but he got rejected by ME ! muahahahaha ! cuz i wanna meet dear dear. LOL.

its soooo weirdo that he would ask me out for KTV, must be bcuz nobody accompany him la !

baby, jiayou for ur IPPT test soon alright !

and... i cant wait for my christmas present ! winkwink*

I MISS MY CLIQUE :DDDDDDDDD date me out babieeeeeeeeees !

PICTURES !

2008-11-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

tadaa ! pictures from 22nd november. :D at VIVOOOO !
this is my shuai ge :D

shouldnt it be the girl hugging the guy ? o.o ?
me, dear, hakim, gilian, amandis and weilun.
out of the picture is.. stanley, ping hong and izak [dunno hw to spell]
hehe. :D

2008-11-26T13:44:00.001+08:00

22nd november. saturday.
went to vivo with dear. met his 840 friends. watched the chihuahua movie again :(
but its not bad watching it on the second round. :D
it was fun though. having my menses on this day and its also our anniversary la.
so... not really in a good mood to take photos or even smile so much.
but of cuz we took alot of pictures. but i dont have those pictures now with me. and my
blogger cannot upload large images. =.= !

23rd november. sunday.
went to kbox with the usual dear and his cousins. :D KBOX ! wooha !
fun fun. but, most of the songs we dont know how to sing... so get bored easily.
AND its all in chinese ! I DONT KNOW HOW TO READ ! =.= !
lol.. 8 person entry cost $230++ RAWR !!! thanks melvin :)
drinks and tiger beer. tiger beer, not as tasty as baron. sooo bitter. meow !

dinner BUFFET !! i love the brownie the most :D I WANT MORE PLEASE.......
24th november. and 25th november.

no interesting stories. 2days of happiness is equivalent to 2days of unhappiness.

life ! you suck man !

hope today isnt like last 2 days.

yawn ! but unfortunately, its going to be... doomed.

boring life. i hate calling names. i freaking hate it. zzz.

repay me with chicken pie and famous amous you dumbass !

boring duh ! AUDITION HAVING PATCH now.. =.= hopefully our hack can still be used.

idiot. yawn !

i dont know why thinkings of death are still beside of me :(

2008-11-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

RAINIE YANG'S "dai wo zou"

:D nice ma ?

i miss my dear !
he's the pig :D

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to dearest.
1year4months. still counting till forever.
take me away like the song above baby.
take me away to the far future,
take away my recurring loneliness.
take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles.
im not afraid, take me away :D
where's my.....cafe cartel ? =x

tomorrow is KBOX time ! :D

{{ .continuation of brother's stolen bicycle. }}
brother's bike was being stolen at bout 11PM. who the hell will
steal a bike at this early when my whole family was awake?
wont he dumbly do it in midnight ?? D: lols.
anyway, he found back his bicycle at bedok reservoir's bike shop.
and that stealer is a malay man. he rode the bike all the way from
my house to bedok reservoir. lol. damn fast. luckily brother's friend
is the owner of the bike shop. and bro's friend punch that stealer.
but that malay man ran away. lols. luckily bro had a good friend :)
brother even had a fall while finding his bike cause too dark for him
to see. hahaha. tralalala ! :D

something precious of yours, will be yours forever.

OH and hor :D
brother gave me a bike. i asked him whats the approximate price of
the bike. he said $500. hahaha ! ala=.='' he got 3 bicycle, give me 1 oso good.

I MISS MY FCUKING BOYFRIEND !!!
wake up luh :( its.... 2.45pm.
baby.. date me out leh ! neh neh. @.@

2008-11-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

im sooo bored today. luckily i have a new show to watch on mysoju.com :D
its.... " bu liang xiao nu " in english its " miss no good " featuring my favourtie
RainieYang :D and male lead is handsome PanWeiBo :D
but rainie's character in the show sounds a lil too act cute. but still like her :D

I MISS DEAR !!! :D
suddenly miss you so much. :(
i wanna treasure you much more baby, cuz i wanna be with you forever.

twinneh, i love you too :)
bu yao sad sad le.
everything will be fine ! :D
i'll always be there for you, twinnehs !

AND HOR !
my bro's bicycle got STOLEN !
neh neh.
curse the person who stole his bike.
neh neh person =.= !!!!
lucky its isnt his super ex bike. :)

2008-11-19T21:54:00.003+08:00

AUDITION ! :D baby and my audi ring upgraded ! become gold le :D sooo happy.
never use hack wor. use our love skill. LOLS ! tadaaa !

hmmm ? which is the real animal ?

this is my ahboy cocoa. cleaning his cute small face ! like cat. haha :DDD

love him so much. he even allow me to hug him. im sooo in love with him.

baby, ur so competing with him now.

thanks dear and coza for telling me that im not useless. well, i hope that i can

be strong :)

im soooo fcuking happy today !!! :DDDDDDDD dear's mummy win lottery.

then she wanna buy me christmas present, but i didnt see anything i liked.

she's soo damn lucky and cute. haha. escalator down, she wanna go up. haha :D

blur blur. then she treated dinner :D AND ! dear bought me a shirt from pasamalam,

then new stylo milo wallet and couple slippers !! BABY IM SOOO LOVING YOU !

thanks for pampering me. i will treat you better, my love. thanks so much.

im sooo happy today !!! GIVE ME A HUG BABY ! my jealousy boy ! D: lols !

when im happy everything about low esteem just simply flew away. but i hope that

i wont be sad cuz i dont want those things to haunt me. fcking stuffs D: !

THANKS DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ! LOVE YOU !!!!
I MISS RACHEL DARLING !!!!

AND I MISS MY CLIQUE FOUR !!!!!

PEK CHEK AUDITION NOOBSTER STEP AHLIAN D:

~ LOL ! lose liao kick ppl. HAHAHAHA so step sia. go home drink mother's breast milk :D

back from audi !!! PEK CHEK ! met 2 noob step ahlians noobster... 1 call x3dar-chrisy AND

xBabyDancerZ !! LOL both cb ham ji ppl. tht cb chrisy kpkb at my dear LOL.. step 1 ahlian..

in the end lose liao ask ppl kick us out of the room. dear said that my character is the most

chio in the room, then she go "ya la.. dont have to tell us. we not interested." LOL !!!

then kp so much. noobster. then wan kick ppl... then still block whisper. so ham !

then the xBabyDancerZ, claim to be some ahlian in AMK !!! LOL. claim herself to be Xahgal..

then i thought is ahgal from some people side.. then she peng wei, next say angel LOL !!

this kind of pengwei ppl still step ahlian. LOL SIA ! still ask dear to be her audi kor ! =.='''

DIAO ! den dear was like, "why must i? do i know you?" LOL den she bo wei kong keep saying..

"kp la" LOL !!! then she say "come amk mrt outside talk la !" then dear say "come geylang la"

then she "i not prostituDe" then dear "nt prostitude, come talk la" LOL then she" ur dar

prostitude la" LOL she call me prostituDe sia. still call me bytch. LOL sia. prostitute oso dunno hw to spell..so xia suay. in the end oso lose, nid to kick ppl. lame sia.. then me and dear spam her then she lan lan nothing to reply. say from amk somemore, hao lian bo la lian. step ahlian.

then i whisper her, "LOL prostitute dunno hw to spell still wan scold ppl, go hme suck ur thumb la. LOL" then she nvr reply. not fun at all...dear call her "fat bitch behind the comp" she oso nvr reply. yawn.. dunno why kids nowadays wanna step so much. then audi so many zzz ppl.. say "wan sui gina syh" LOL sia ! then dear ask them wher they from and which side, then they push each other saying they not la.. this this this person is la. LOL so disgusting still wan step..audition alot of kids. becareful cuz kids might pee anywhere ! :D

thanks baby ! :DD

for helping me kp those ppl. LOL. loveeeeya !

2008-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

FINALLY !!!
audition perfect makes life easier :DDD
thanks thanks thanks.

i miss dear dear... he's got duty today again.. went to jinhui's chalet ytd,
met my super long lost cliques. lol. "long lost"... and some malay friends.
all of them were like, "hey, ur hair very long leh..", "hey, ur hair very nice"
and all. lols. they are pretty too. :) thanks for the compliments. hope that
those are truths. haha. well, met singhong twinneh, jiaen ahboy and guanshen bro.
besties ! :D then after that i went to tam to meet dear. hope he's fever recover
fast fast :( i miss him so much.

sigh. now that i kno that im just a small shyt in my family, and being labelled as
"useless", i've decided to give up. :( i didnt kno that i was like this in the eyes of
my own blooded brother. i tot i can try being like my successful cousins by learning
"POA" but, i didnt know that i couldnt catch up so much. and i was so lacked behind
duh.. i regretted so much taking that. i love art so much but just listen to what people
mean by successful, i went to do what i didnt like. and that sucks so much. now, im just
a person who fails and fails. study ? failed.. what else can i do man ? i cannot be like
my cousins...they are sooo clever. i think im just a good for nothing person thats all :D
i've let my family down. useless.

i go hack liao. BYE !

2008-11-12T18:50:00.002+08:00

TADAAA !
baby, u are damn WANTED by me ! :D lols. what a stressful look ?

COCOA ! its all about you, this naughty boy !
heard that you bite my daddy huh ? now he dont like you alrdy. look what u've done !
dont act innocent huh ! he's my FLUFFY boy :D
is this little boy here horny ? actually his legs were opened. well, he looks too black to spot it :D
mother says that his eyes looks like black bean ?
*munch munch on grass*

watched "sex and the city" haha. its a great movie man !
watch it in the website ! its not the sex which is important, its the movie.
i wanna have great sisters in the show who can share everything with.

i WANNA watch madagascar: escape 2 africa !

i miss dear laaaaaaaaaa !
he's on duty today AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN !
rawrrrrr ! lalala ~
im sooooooooo going to meet my cliques in jinhui's chalet :D
but im even sooooooooooooooooooo gonna miss my fcuking boyfriend ! :DDD

why is everybody on earth talking of MONEY ? its ok. money makes me get a better look on my friends around me :D if a friend treats you damn well, in the future, u'll lose. nothing is free in this world :) money is the best test in this world. look who loves you and who loves your money. hate being used. and hate fcuking ppl who thinks that they are ahlians or ahbengs. go and fcuk your mother man. disgusting fcuking pussy and dickhead people. smoke means gangster ah ? drink means gangster ah ? scold vulgarities means gangster ah ? zZZZZzz ! LOL............................ someone who is real now, might be fake in the future :D fcuk it !

si bei bored leh !

2008-11-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

im sooooo freaking BORED !

help me !!!!!!

bored bored bored ... nobody jio me out to play and relax . sooooooooo freaking sian-ed !

audition is so bored la =.= ... then cocoa dont wanna play with me . that RABBIT !!! grrr ...

dear la ! got duty today.. then im at home rotting like wth ...

I WANNA WORK ! I WANT MONEY TO DROP FROM HEAVEN FOR MEEEE !

hope one day got post man come to my hse and give me a cheque of money, and say

that the government give me for fun . dream too much !

yes man !

cant wait for KBOX on the 23rd ! i wanna play pooooooooool man !
baby, i wanna hold hands with you and walk thru the journey of life .

sorry le, i wont let go of you so easily le .

we walk tgt till we are old, white heads and many children till others get jealous .

animals can, we also can !! hahah :D

AMAZING FACTS bout natural living things . (only took some)

1 . The Poison Arrow frog has enough poison to kill 2,200 people.
2 . Emus can't walk backwards.
3 . India has 50 million monkeys.
4 . The typical hen lays 19 dozen eggs a year.
5 . Dolphins sleep with one eye open.
6 . A swan is the only bird with a penis.
7 . A squid has 10 tentacles.
8 . An elephant can be pregnant for up to 2 years.
9 . Zebras can't see the color orange.
10 . The smartest dogs are the Jack Russell Terrier and Scottish Border collie.Dumbest: Afgan hound.
11 . A rat can go without water longer than a camel can.
12 . Bulls are color blind.
13 . Mosquitoes have 47 teeth.

AND AMAZING FACTS about humans !
1 . Babies are born without kneecaps. They appear when the child is 2-6 years of age.
2 . After eating too much, your hearing is less sharp.
3 . If you ate too many carrots you would turn orange.
4 . A hair is 70 per cent easier to cut when soaked in warm water for two minutes
5 . The colder the room you sleep in, the better the chances are that you'll have a bad dream.
6 . The fastest growing nail is on the middle finger.
7 . The strongest muscle in the human body is the tongue.
8 . The life span of a taste bud is 10 days.
9 . There are approx. 550 hairs in the eyebrow.
10 . Women blink twice as many times as men do.

well, i dont know whether those are true or not. its taken from web. interesting to read
on ! :D

i miss dear dear and rachel baobei !

back to normal !

2008-11-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

everything is back to normal .
i even thought of slitting my wrist and die in pain with my blood .
everything is bloody damn silly .
i must change myself .
i wanna be a strong girl whom doesnt seem to be afraid of anything .
dont wanna get bullied or being angry behind anybody .
if not happy why keep it to urself ? just shoot man !
dear told me that he saw scariest fight between girls are by scratching .
and mostly can fight de is small breast ones ......
lol ! big also can la ! scratch ppl so easy but i wanna learn techniques :D
dear ah, teach me how to fight !
you say that you wanna teach me de ....... promise breaker .
get back the book from that fucking eric la ! zzz man ...
i wanna be someone useful and not someone useless :D
useless means no guts, rmb ?
i love to listen to your past baby, you made me felt so proud of having
you as my boyf . of cuz i wont make use of you duh ! lols .
i love you the way you are . teach me !!!!!! muahahaha !
dont teach me ? FINE, i search it myself . RAWR !
i love you, my ahbeng boyF .
who even scolded me "PUA BYE inside a lan shop" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
very wu seh hor ? big shot hor ? grrrr ! you this heartbreaker ..............

rachel baobei !! thanks for understanding. i really miss you so much !
and i really curse that ahpink spammer in your blog man .
disturbance of peace .
i loveeeeeee and i misssss you so damn badly la .
just dont know how to face you . miss you plenty that i get jealous easily =x
you are so dearest to me babeh ! my always true sister .
one and only treasured SISTER-SHIP .

AND hor ! i miss my clique 4 la... idiot !
never contact me . only i talk to you all huh !
you all la ! singhong, jiaen and guanshen sai ... still got who sia !
all MIA from msn liao sia . i miss u all man ...
lai, jio me go out gai gai ok ! :DDDDD
my clique .
i dont treasure other friends except the 3 of you le .
other friends are SHITS !!! all not true friends, i hate them :D

my life is colourful again :D

im hurt again
2008-11-08T14:02:00.003+08:00
sweet talks are just lies .
lies which made someone fall in love .
lies which made a person go blind .

i didnt know that i was so irritating to the person i loved .
and i hate audition again .
throw me aside when you dont nid me .
the way u left me alone is worst than the way i felt you .
when ur angry, i have to take ur anger and ur bad mood .
im so sorry that i cannot take it anymore, im useless .
whats the point of me being strong when hurts are always there ?
i dont want to be strong because im not strong .
i dont wanna lie to myself that im strong anymore .
you left me alone again .
you refrained me from cutting, but it cant seem to work this way .
nothing heals the pain in me .
faking a smile doesnt work . i love to see blood .
i thought yesterday was just a nightmare and today was just a dream .
i cant stop lying .
i cannot take it anymore .
let me fly away and disappear in your dreams .
everything was my fault .
fault that i couldnt be strong enough .
fault that i couldnt understand you more .
fault that i couldnt control myself .
i must be so silly .

ZOO & welcome back to audition !!!

2008-11-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

2nd November o8.
went to the zoo with dear, kaili, melvin and alan :)

on the way to woodlands interchange :D dear and his SMALL eyes !

waited for the bus to zoo, for SO LONG !!! as 1 bus missed to take us up !
when we boarded the bus, its alrdy so late.. 4++ lor. den dear soooo angry. haha !
then at last, we reached the ZOO !! $200 for 5 person, zoo+night safari and tram.
SO expensive man ! thanks dear for treating me :DD

ZOOOOOOO !!
monkey tickets for me and my dear.
after entering the zoo, its pouring so heavily that we couldnt even explore !!! SO SUAY !
monkey love ! hello red butt babboon !
this is the male babboon. HE's FREAKING HORNY ! can even see his cock steaming !
but in camera cannot see his cock la. go to the zoo and u'll see their small cock. lols.
then those guy monkeys will hold a female as thou they wanna fuck them. free show man !
is this call butt infection ? lol. nope, it means that she are ready to breed !
kangaroooooooooo ! weird long legs !
this is an emu, sleeping. weird pose. feel like kicking its head.
hello, this is me and my kangaroo boyF !
whats this fat thing in the water ?
its a hippo ! hahaha. fat, round and cute !!
hello TWINNEH ! zebras are me and you ! :D lols.
reticulated python ?!
indian star tortoise ! hello slow moving animal ... can u catch me ?
komodo dragon. big sia ! scary.. hahaha
no more polar bear alrdy ! so.... we took picture with the fake bear ! haha .
hello penguin. ur soooo small !
see the sun ray, piercing through !
night safari !!!!!!!
us, all together ! :DD
me and my dear !
well, night safari is too dark ! cant switch on the flash, or it'll hurt the animals.
so..... i have to make use of my hp night mode. which is pathetic. lol. but at least
better than dear's cybershot which cant even shoot the owl as good as mine.
so what's the point of having a super good camera? =x
aha ! night safari....cant upload much pictures. so....visit night safari yourself ! :D

night owl ! they can turn their heads 360degress man !
woohoo !
see what's the baby monkey doing. dont suck ur daddy's dick ok ?

4th Nov.
im back in AUDITION !
with new colour, new pet and new clothes !!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
ahblack hello ! imma burnt monkey !
this is my gingerbread boy. he's soooooo cute. unlike dear's gingerbread girl, lup chiong mouth !
haha. my ahboy is begging me.
tadaaa ! me and dear and our ginger babies !
look carefully, ginger girl is lup chiong. =x

lastly ! me, and my COCOA baby ! he's got big legs. lols. my fluffy naughty boy :D

i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my boyfriend.
and baby pls dont get OMNIA ! i dont wanna wait for ur sms.......
cuz touchscreen sucks ! hard to SMS. no point having a phone when
its soooooo not convenient la !

who got audition hack ? send me ! cuz i wanna hack. :DD

for my baobei.

2008-11-03T16:57:00.001+08:00

:( :( :(
im so sad now..
after reading baobei's blog.
she sad sad moody.. i dont know why i read le also feel sad.
why why tell me why ?
her labels: " stay away no matter who are you " :(
should i stay away ?
just felt that i miss her so much. after these many months,
i felt that i haven met her for years. she's really the best girl
i met in my life. the girl who understands me the most and
will be there for me whenever i needed someone. but unfortunately,
i wasnt there for her. im so useless. our relationship is fading so far
away, but memories will still be within my heart. i love the madness
we went thru. laughing loudly in the streets, cursing whoever walked
past us, shopping tgt, slacking tgt, taking neoprints, shouting out loud,
still remembered myself crying when she hugged me and cried tgt.
baobei, i miss you so much. do you know how much i wanna return to
the past with you. but i have no confidence that we can..everything is
so far apart now. im so scared that there's nothing we can talk about.

no matter what is it, i'll still miss you :)
do takecare of yourself. cheerup baby.
let nature takes it course.

i miss whoever is important to me, my boyf, my baobei and my clique 4 !

1st november present !

2008-11-01T22:34:00.001+08:00

yea yo yea yo ! today is 1ST NOVEMBER ! and i've got a november present !
read more for more. hahaha.
TOOT TOOT TOOT !

im so into the zoo trip tmr man ! sorry rachel baobei :( dear contacted his cousins
to go to the zoo last minute. we'll still have outing tgt when ur fine babeh ! :D

hello, this is cocoa and his shit paradise ! cocoa says " dont step into my territory or i'll bite ! "
went to baby's hse today. haha. since mocha likes her food soooooo much,
she was granted to have it ALL !

this is my november present !

MY PRESENT ! :D

after bleaching my hair, dear's hand smelled like CHLORINE ! and its the super fucking kind.

hahahahaha ! sorry baby. but THANKS baby !!! :D iloveyou !

i miss rachel baobei ;D

currently chatting with JIAEN ! suddenly felt that i miss HIM so much !!!!!! :DDDDDDD omg. i seriously miss all of my clique 4 friends ! :( all of them had a job except me, well, IM WAITING FOR MY FREE TREAT FROM THEM ALL ;DDDDD thanks en, thanks twin, thanks bro in advance. muahahaha ! =x

2008-10-31T16:33:00.000+08:00

after seeing this car in bugis few days back on sunday 28oct, baby and i are in love with
this nissan GT-R skyline 2008. muahaha ! there's 2009, but not sure whats the difference
between 2008 and 2009 cars. VROOOM !!!! very sexy engine. it costs bout 300k in SG,
but 100+K in US. sooooooooooooooooooooooo different la. haha.
this is the 2008. :D
its named as the fast and focus car. imagine how cool it would be ?!

check this car out in youtube ! :D

baby GT-R, im gonna OWN you in my dreams. muahahaa ! sweet dreams :D

2008-10-31T15:32:00.000+08:00

wooo ! im back for blogging with my cute baby rabbit boy !
he's lovely adapting to my house ! hahaha. cocoa looks silverish oh ?
maybe he wanna play PSP ?

after sprinting around in my house, he appeared out of no where. then my mother kicked

cocoa ! LOL. this is his next expression. flat on the ground. who ask him to be so playful.

sooo cute la. like a carpet on the floor.

he climbed on me while i was playing PSP. thought he so "good boy" wanna play with

me. ended up, shitting on my pants ! 25 little shits. -.- ! dirty belly..

he's camping under the living room table. cuz the fan is blowing at him. lol.

tadaaa.i love my fuckingggg boyfriend ! who is on duty today. HAHAHAHA !

YES man ! baby is going to highlight my hair tomorrow. shiok ahhhh ! :DDDD

2008-10-28T13:17:00.001+08:00

sunday; 26 oct o8.
went to plaza sing with dear and his usual cousins. melvin went to shop
for clothes with his gf. then we walked to takashimaya to eat soul garden.
its soul garden: the table barbecue people. haha.
:( i dont have as much photo as dear. rawr !!!

watched midnight movie"the coffin" haha, dear said that its boring la !!! but i find it so-so :]
haha story-line not bad la. dear said not so scary, duh ! i den dont want it
to be too scary. lol later got nightmare.
then waited for bus at dhoby ghaut for 1 hour plus, NO BUS ! sunday got no midnight bus.
lols ! waited for nothing. took cab back home :D
thanks melvin for the dinner. :]

monday; 27 oct o8
had lunch with my family, this time its really family. haha always ate without
my mother. then i headed down to tampines to find dear. then went to east
coast to play lan. hahaha. we quarreled la ! he bad mood den shout at me. hurt
my feelings :( sooooo damn angry with him la. i did nothing man ! then played
counter strike. haha! purposely chose the team opposite his, so i can kill him !!
starting i keep shooting him. hahahaa ! soooo fucking funny. then i laugh. lol..
but he fucker la, keep head shot me. well, hahaha !! there's once, my shotgun
win his snipper. LOL i so happy. i hate snipper, so hard to aim. lol. dear is a shit
who hide behind trees !! not like me, chiong ahhh.... and die. lol =x
dear sucks !

baby dont shout at me liao la. you yell like shit man. you fucker.
i love my fucking boyfriend:]
tuesday; 28 oct o8.
fucking dear got duty today :(
made me ALONE at home like shit. well, im gonna dye my hair. WEEEE !
btw, dear let me highlight my hair ! those little portion highlight. WOOOO !

hey hey ! i wanna play poooool ! ;D
WATCH GUNDAM 00 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

yo mama's back ;D

its been quite longggggg since i've just blogged eh ? 3 days long.

argh..baby is having duty now ! left me at home to rot, anyway,

watched gundam 00 ! :DDDD lols. got handsome guy and super
handsome mobile suit. muahahahaha ! watch it at; www.liveanime.net
:D

in love with gundam ! LOL !
currently catching this korean drama called " bad love " too.

I WANT A JOB !!!!!!!!! to stop all my drama catchingsss.
i wanna go to zoo baby ! o1 NOVEMBER is our date with my darling !

1 year 3 months anni <3

2008-10-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

happy 1 year and 3 months anniversary !

my lovely boy !

i wanna make more happiness in our relationship !

and i wanna be in love with you forever !

BECAUSE, im crazily in love with you :D my peter asclepius choy !

: my boy and our baby girl [[MOCHA]] :D lols !

sadly, baby is having his duty in the station today, well, I MISS YOU ! :D

2008-10-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

MAMA IS BACK !
mama has new babiesssss ! cocoa and mocha !!
cocoa is blackie[male]. mocha is brownie[female] :D

this is cocoa. he's in lalaland with a super sexy posture.

this is mocha. "wanna smell my sexy leg ?"

sent mocha off to dear's house. on the way there, many things happened. haha.
everybody stared at me as though im bringing bomb into the bus, but the fact is..
its mocha in pinky cute basket ok ! :D took bus 8 there and the old man sitting bside
me, was kind. luckily he rared rabbits too, or else some SUA KU auntie or uncles will
be like " EEEE what is that huh?" heng ah... then walked thru shelter to another bus
stop, dont wanna let mocha and us sick, we took plenty buses just to get sheltered all
the way to dear's house. SO MA FAN ! tampines ah..... =x lol.
took 293 from tampines inter. standing in the bus with this big basket !
a man behind me was initially sitting, he stood up and get off the bus. ME, wanting to
sit, got DISTURBED by a chinaaaaaaa woman. -.-''' ! thats my seat laaaa. she snatched
it from me, the seat was directly behind me. wah NO BRAINS man. im carrying a big
basket lor. pek chek with that china woman. no manners, dont know where they learn
their bloody manners from. ala, she's OLD, i kind ! let old ppl sit :D baby took a photo
of the china woman. LOL !! so thick skin, idiot woman.

in dears house,
mocha adapting to her new home.

this morning, i played with cocoa. he's the KPO ! smell daddy's bird cage. he's soooo small !after his investigation in my house, he's freaking thirsty. lol.

to my dearest babyboy,
i love you fucking plenty ;D
love you like the breast so high !
many many like the countless pubic hair !

my one and only; irreplaceable love. he's MY boyfriend !

2008-10-19T14:34:00.001+08:00

yo mama is back !

bought rabbit yesterday at marine parade's sam's pet shop.
its mix breed ! local and drawfy. :D baby rabbit is gonna grow
not too big and not too small ! both me and dear had 1 baby each.
:D i take the blackie one and dear took the brownie. then went
to amir's[dear's friend] birthday at east coast. then went back :D

rabbit and all beddings cost $250 !!!! rabbits each cost $84 !!!
DADDY'S GONNA KILL ME :(
this is the box when we just bought, its not their house of cuz :D
the sleeping beauty. black= male. brown=female.

yesterday picking ahblack, he's not that sleepy. i dont know why he keeps

sleeping today. is he sick or too scared ? :(

I WANT ZOOO :D

I MISS DEAR :D

2008-10-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

NEW SONGS, UPDATED PLAYLIST :D
enjoyyyyyyy~

watch camp rock !

boohoo ! i wanna go to the ZOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!
today was a boring day.
dear having duty, friends all at home, me rotting at home.
:( i somehow felt that friends dont need me anyway, they
have their own friends too.

hated school man. the principal dont do things properly.
dont explaint things properly. they seriously hate us, NA
students and dont wish us to continue our studies in this
lousy fucking school. what a selfish principal.

gonna spend my day at home watching movies and planning
for tomorrow.

I WANNA GO SWIMMINGGGGGGGG !
I WANNA GO TO THE ZOOOOO !
I WANNA GO OUT AND HAVE FUNN !

2008-10-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

saturday,11/10/o8.
haha. me and dear.. quarrel quarrel....... then
went to sentosa with dear and his 840 friends. reached the place
at around 3 or 4 ++, cant really rmb the time. played water...
saw crab. haha notice that dear shiver so hardly when the wind
blow by. hahaha. so cute. then...went back to tampines for dinner
then went back home. went there too late le.. cant play much.

sunday,12/10/o8.
haha. dear misunderstood me ! then quarrel again lo :(
then we went to bugis ! took neoprints. hahaha. like it very much.
met dear's cousin: alan, melvin and melvin's girlfriend. dont know
her name :( haha. well, she's a not bad person, small small size..
quite cute. I WANNA BE SMALL TOO. hahahahahaha ! T.T
then went to eat "hong kong cafe" the same cafe which rachel &
javier bought me and dear to. hahaha. ate baked rice this time !
a not bad expierence. haha. then we watch the movie "painted
skin" haha. ITS NICE LA. so romantic. love love love. and CRY !
greatest love is to sacrifice. not "die die die" sacrifice la, is sacrifice
to see your love ones being happy, even thou its giving them to be
with another person. thats freaking hurtful. OUCH !

if your husband ever love another women, and that woman loves
your husband, will you let them be together or fight back ?
i say, its my husband's choice. whatever he's happy. if your heart
is with me, you wont even love another woman la. lols. but i'll do
whatever makes you happy.

monday.13/10/o8, TODAY !
DOOMSDAY ~
today's school... is fucking fucking fucking boring la ! damn it. went
to school to study shit. all the teachers didnt even appear for lesson.
lower sec checked their exams scripts! so all the subject teachers
attended only to them and not us ! what a lousy school organisation.
its super useless for us being there in school to wait for fuck. at least
say monday dont have to come to school la. lol. suck man bedok north.
anyway, im not going to school lo ! HAHA. self holiday. WOOOOOOO !
and I HATE BITCHES. saw them today in school. was like fucked up
with the high pitches of *act cute* voice. LOL~ SO TEHHHHH ~
lai ah lai teh teh teh, lelong lelong everybody come teh ah ! fuck bitch.
say want beat ppl. LOL mai step one can fight la. look at yourself in
the mirror and punch ur reflection and see whether you feel the pain anot.
LOL. so whatever ~

baby, im missing you badly.
come and we shall gossip bout bitches whom i knew. cuz they suck cock !
hahahahahhahahahaa !!!!
work work work, come pei me ! :D

past, present, future

2008-10-10T14:08:00.001+08:00

read my PAST stories. haha. well, past and present is so different.
posts in a act cute way, so TEH !!! LOL ! now different alrdy. haha.
in the past, i used to complaint about my life, friends and family.
almost everything about me. love life sucks in the past, nearly walking
into a different world of being a bad, rebellious child just to seek attention
from my parents. getting involve in any slackings and outings, piercings
and learning how to drink. nearly went into smoking but i learnt how to control
myself from that. piercings doesnt mean ahlian, its just what i love.
enjoyed slacking with all my friends in the past, hanging out late, cycling
in the middle of the road, runing from police, piercing many many & stealing stuffs.

well, that was all the past. until i met you, peter asclepius choy. hahaha !
january17,2007 post, i called you mr. beautiful. haha ! and i began to hate
eric; a guy whom was playing with my feelings. and now, i've choosen the
right path of meeting my current and only boyfriend , PETER. NOT eric. :D
baby, u've changed me into another person. although i might be a lil vulgar
to you. =x HAHA, but im not a bad girl. :D dont hate my piercings baby.
i will appreciate you now like i never did before. before, i neglect you and
complaint that you are this and that. after all these shit we've gone thru,
i will trust you like how you trusted me. and i'll love my family like i
never did before, no more shouting at my parents.

and for the future, i'll love you more and more and deeply and plenty plenty much !
let me be the only one who loves you deeply.
let me be the only one who cures your phobia.
let me be the only one who have you.
let me be the only one who lives with you forever.
im addicted to YOU!

2008-10-10T13:17:00.002+08:00

TOOOOOT ! yo mama is back to blog !

9OCTOBERo8.
went to GYM with baby bout 12. lol. surprise yea !! i did cycling ONLY la.
abit of jogging but CMI; cannot make it. lol. cuz i dont know how to follow
the bloody pace of the machine den was panting like madness. muahaha !
after exercising, we ate long-john silver. LOL fats, come back to mama !
then went to baby's hse. he intro-ed me this show called " EIGHT BELOW"
hahahahahah ! super nice la ! WOOF WOOF ! youtube.com can find this show.
touching, great and intelligent husky dogs survived themselves alone for months.
love husky cuz they look fierce and loyal to owners. look like wolf !! si bei sui !

IM IN LOVE WITH HUSKY SSSSSSSS ! puppy. innocent yea ? i guess its frowning. lol.huskyS on vacation ! haha. male wear undies and female wear bikini ! cute yea ?

10-OCT-o8. friday.

hahahaha. wooo !

I MISS MY PETER ASCLEPIUS CHOY; CAI SHUN YI.

muahahahahahahaha ! jiayou dearest, im supporting you under ur butt giving you

my breast power. muahah !

today baby's having duty. well, cliques suggested to go for a badminton game !

hahahhahahaha. wooo ! :D but haven get any info bout it yet. lols.

tomorrow, WE ARE GOING TO SENTOSA !! with dear and some of his 840 friends.

hohohoho. sun-tan and then sun burn. LOL. sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai !
baby, show me ur hunky body. hahahaha ! i love you fucking plenty :D

i miss RACHEL baobei ;D

yo mama signing out.

IM YOUR MOTHER ! ; shout !

2008-10-07T21:15:00.004+08:00

END OF
EXAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o7OCTo8.
END END END !!!
last paper into the monsoon drain !! HAHA.
with relationship problems last few days, and stressing for EXAMS.......
ITS ALL GOING TO END FOR GOOD :D
i hope so.. lols.

after exam, went to senghuat's house straight after eating lunch !
haha. well, only played his DOGGY outside his house. ITS SOOOO CUTE LA !
haha. senghuat found this cutie doggy. which it's owner let him out to roam,
abandoned. he asked the dog owner to give him the dog since they dont want it.
here's the NO NAME dog. haha new owner didnt give cutie a new name...ROUND FACE ?

haha. if this doggy is gonna eat more, its gonna be " like owner like dog " .
hahahahaha. its a "he". he's sooooo guai ! wont bark, only lick ppl's hand and
wag the fluffy tail.. sit and walk so gracefully. heard its a "trained-dog".
senghuat said that doggy will cry when he's alone. and the first few nights, doggy
had teary eyes, probably he's missing his owner :(

i can imagine how blackie experienced in the past. im sorry baby. leaving you
wasnt the choice of mine !! bloody fucking bitch took you away from me ! i really
miss you. all my bad :'(
I WANT A DOG . I WANT MY BLACKIE .

went to BUGIS to shop for my 30bucks present !! :DD shopped for a little bag. hee. thank

friends :) you all rawk !!! shopped in bugis and got shocked ! an "ah gua" stares at us and

shouted" see what see ?" LOL. that was like... huh ? we'r just walking and....i dint look

at"he/her" till "he/she" screamed. lols. not bad. "he/she" can scream in a higher pitch than

me !! omg. :( i need to train more on screamSSSSSSSSSS !

to my love, i miss you badly. i trust you and i need you to trust me in return.
dont allow the past to interfere in our relationship, neither the past nor anyone else.
i hope everything will change in time. i hope u remember what i said to you ytd (:
remember this valentines gift from you ?

when flowers whittered and everything turned old, it will still be a part of my memories.

2008-10-04T16:31:00.000+08:00

SAY HELLO TO MAMA ~

my new trademark !

wah super fucking bored...

dear la ! got duty today and pangseh-ed me at home !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOREEEEEEEED !

SIANNNN - ED !

i want RABBIT even thou my family resricted me from having one ! HAHAHAH !

i must get what i want ! a cute cute not long not short eared rabbit. most of all is CAN PLAY !

NONO what i want most, is a DOG ! :D but rabbit too can play ma. *wink wink*

heh heh heh !

are all guys really 2 headed ?

i dont know what to do man. to trust my boy, but theres some unknown questions

in my mind. shld i or shld i not believe it ? will he do anything behind my back ?

since he and she can tag in a blog often and she will chat with him when he's online ?

is it when im beside u baby, then u dont wanna reply her ?

what could i say and do ? i trust you, but i dont trust my mind. fucking mind just cant

stop thinking. its so insecure !!!!!! :(

baby i love you ...

BOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insecure insecure insecure !

actions speaks louder than words.

get away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

birthday!

2008-10-01T21:50:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF !!!
30septo8; tuesday.
baby brought me to bugis walk walk. his cousin; melvin said that there
will be a chalet lor ! then in the end it was a cancel. made me so into chalet
mood and then its all gone ! :( anyway, walk walk walk. ATE SAKAEEEE !

look look look. dig ur eye. muahaha !
dear's and mine. haha. he big mouth, muz eat alot =x
yummy.
MY ben's and jerry la ! waited this for damn LONG !!! but its a melted one when i 1st ate. 4 LEAF !!! :DDDD thanks baby. this is my favourtie present from dearest ! THANKS DEAREST !!

1stoct; wednesday.
MY ACTUAL birthday ! :D but dear was working on that day. well, i still have my
lovely clique ! singhong twinneh, jiaen didi and brother guanshen. hahahaha :D
love them all. they brought me to suntec ! ate this "BAKERZIN" its all cake, pastries
and delicious foods ! :D thanks CLIQUE for celebrating my day.
i got cheated for buying ice chocolate. ITS LIKE ICE MILO !!!
hahaha. MY FOOD !

special cake.
collapse ! :D booooom...
took neoprint at arcade. hahaha.

played the machine... spent bout $20 on these 2 ! lols. jiaen favourite ah :Dwent to coffee shop near my house, brother treat whole family eat !! :DDD
ate...chilli crab, prawns, grouper fish and gang kong. hahahaha. total of $100 plus.
hahahaha. thanks BROTHER !!!! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE !

2ndOCT; thursday.
went to tampines mall to get my black shorts ! then went to bugis to meet rachel,
javier and their friend, whom i dont know her name :( haha. but she's funny. haha!
laugh so loud. very cheerful girl :D went to this "hong kong cafe" at siglap. and saw
MISS NURUL AIN ~ at other cafe. hahaha pretty tcher :D

thanks baobei rachel, javier and the girl.
most of all, thanks DEAR ! :D
& thanks for bullying me !!

3rdOCT;friday.
MATHEMATICS PAPER 2 N LEVEL. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
.
.
FAIL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha !!

work work work !

2008-09-30T12:26:00.003+08:00

1 more day to MY BIRTHDAY !!!
for the past few days, 26th, 27th and 28th.
im working at the formula 1 vendors !! :DD handling lots of money and
customers. and and and, have to tolerate the ang mo BOSS's PMS ! aka
period mood swing. he's madness. 1 minute of smiling, another minute
of bloody fucking black face !!!!!!!! MAD MAN !! 3 days of suffering man !
working with amandis and gillian. had fun fun fun !! but not fun with BOSS.
each day suffer 12 hours of standing, only 30 mins of sitting down for each
day. dumb ass !! dint even get to eat the proper food as the food over there
is freaking fucking EXPENSIVE !!! but its worth it. hahahahhahahaha ;DDD
the angmo boss keep showing off his HAIRY BUTT CRACK TO EVERYONE !!
wearing a super low boxers.. bending down every hour. showing off his
wonderful and ugly hair !
love some customers !! can get to see beautiful Caucasians ! hard to see for
handsome ones. lols. some customers are funny and smiley. love it :D

1st day of work.
haha. rolling under fences in and out. haha. but got caught by police on that day !
super cartoon. the police was nagging at us.. BLABLABLA.... crows flying across my
head. hahaha ! but he's nice not to arrest us. its illegal !! LOLS :D
did some bad stuffs during work. hahahhahahahahahahahhahaha. IM LOVIN IT !
who's the super friendly customer? discounts allowed! haha. who ask that hairy
boss to treat us SO BADLY.
thanks boss for the FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE STUFFFFS !!!

as days goes by, breaks for resting also stretched ! haha. take our own sweet time
to eat and travel around the place. looking at how fast those racing cars ZOOM pass
our face. GO GO GO ! ! :D VOOOM !!

HATE boss. he freaking call me "stupid" when i forgot that some credit cards
need to be swiped and some needs to be chipped into the machine. haha.
cheebye. anyway, i made him LOSE what he need to lose. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA !!! cheebye kia ! WOOOO !

and and, met a girl called guoting. haha i dont know her but she says that she
knows me. haha. she's also from band but she's now in poly. she saw me last
year ? haha. surprisingly yea ? :DD kinda shocked when she told me, " ur in
band right ? " hahaha ;D well, made friends with her. haha. she's quite nice.

MONEY ! free money ?

farrari, BMW, renault. V12 VENDOR ~
haha. too short to take a picture of the race track !!
our $30 meal !!!!!!!! $10 each. just freaking hotdog bread and fries !!!!!!
tadaaa. beautiful hand tag ;D
yesterday, 29th.
went to marina square's hotel just ahead. to collect pay. received a total
of $365. and bloody angmo give all.... $10 and $5 notes. LOL. madness.
thickness of super cashy ! ;D

ALA !!! N level exam !! fuck you. its hard for maths to pass man. CB. :(
didnt study. cuz work work work. bloody fuck man. SO HEART PAIN.
hahaha ! i dont care anyway. so.... its all based on my knowledge to know
whether i can pass or not. ;D

and fuck. yesterday managed to see some bitches, THOSE ACT CHIO ones in school. fuck man. spare my beautiful eyes !! HAHA. sian sia. dont wanna go to school to spoil my eyes. i just wanna do my exam, what a bad day ! yucks and thumbs down to act chios ;DD

ITS SAKAEEEE TODAY !!!! ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
happy birthday to myself in 1 day's advance. i love you, xiangxiang. [sometimes
only] hehehehhee !

2008-09-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

6 more days to my birthday !

cb la. -.-''' internet explorer got problem, close every window.

never even save my post. fuck you !

ytd went to east coast with dear and some of his 840 friends.

they are friendly :D went for job interview at this "mingles"

restaurant. really hope dear can work with me :D

bored holiday without working. then headed back to tampines

inter, bought a white handbag for 10bucks. affordable and pretty.

dear owe me a black shorts and SAKAE SUSHiiii ! :D

today, thursday 25sept.

i was feeling frustrated in class. due to some voice irritation.

sooooooo noisy and piercing to the ear drums which are HARMFUL !

yucks. hearing those squicking voices of act cute pitch. that will really

hurt anybody's ear drum. hahaha. hope they just shut the fuck up as

thou their assholes are their mouths. haha attention seekers are harmful

to the eyes.

tomorrow, gonna work at esplanade from 11am to 11pm with amandis and

some friends of hers. haha. 10bucks per hour. gonna skip school tomorrow !

working from friday till sunday. monday is chemistry, physics and maths

paper 1 for N lvls . damn ! tonight im gonna chiong study. hope i can study !

i can do it :D woohoo ! hope to see dear tomorrow, im gonna miss him badly !

im gonna pamper myself with the money im gonna earn for my birthday ! :D

9.01PM

2008-09-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

8 more days to my birthday ! :D

23sept o8, tuesday.
went to school as usual. currently at dear's hse blogging while
he play his PSP game ! haha. had a fun day in school today.
except that i went to school and saw a white face girl ghost in my class.
AND grace returned to school ! haha. although in the past, i super
dislike her, but now she's still a part of my friend list ! :D
point of view of others will change over some time. and it
changed for the better. :D
snatch back my friend. those who knows me well, they know
that i dont like to share my best friends with other. hehe !!
really hate alot of ppl in school man. espacially the 2 malay
girls. popular hit of hatred in class. haha. one look so much like
a prostittute and another act big shot. hahaha ! look who's the
one scolding " fuck you " now ! and FUCK YOU ! :DDDD
wanna find some problem to play with that bitch ! haha.
and some in my class likes to act cute. like LOL ! whatever~
like my mother cares. haha. im in an racist class known as 4F :D

im not gonna let others snatch my friends ! and I HATE PANGSEH KIAS.
hahaha ! die man, DIE :D feel what it likes to get pangseh-ed ! haha.

i wanna go gym ! but thanks to the shit menstration. grrr. it will still come
true. hahaha.

beutiful picnic;

2008-09-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

9 more days to my BIRTHDAY ! :D who remembers ?
sunday; 21 september.
being with u on this endless road of loves.
tadaaas. after persuading him to take photo !!

went to bukit gombak for picnic ! :D it's super beautiful ! recommended for couples
to spend sweet quality time ! :DD so natural. saw 2 huge eagles, with black beautiful
wings spreading widely. tortoise and some weird animals gliding accross the water !
heard super noisy monkeys shouting too. hahaha. damn cute. i want a monkey pet ! @.@

took this while standing on top of another high rock.

my big mouth; cute boyF.

posting for bread advertisement. haha ! say that its yummy babeh !

QUEEN of the world !! bow to me and say that you love me :D nah, kidding :P
smiles. baby, u make me feel so loved. and i love you plenty.

22 september o8. monday.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY !! :D
i love you baby. sorry yesterday a little bit moody, stupid menstration la !
haha. just tend to think alot. but i love you ! thanks for everything for this 1year
and 2months baby. i love you, one and only. no doubts but only the truth. ^^.

2008-09-20T13:36:00.000+08:00

11 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY !
DABIAN ~ my envy shit. cuz its forever smiling widely :D
sunday, 14th sept.
its mooncake festival ! went to play candles with dear and his friends at tamp.
haha had fun. they even made flying sticks, which made loud bomb sounds ! super cool.

dear lighting the candles :D
22. :D

with loves.sexy long wax ! :D looks like intestine. lols.

smoked the central park with burnings ! haha.
our fire crackers thrown anywhere.

the end of the day.

tuesday, 16 sept.

brought monkey and dabian to school to have a fun day.
monkey is in love with dabian. :D

went to tampiness mall after school. as senghuat wanna buy tamagochi.

haha. at toys r us ! from left to right= panda, poodle, piglet, 2horsey. :D

panda aka senghuat, poodle aka jiaen, piglet aka guanshen bro, horse aka me and singhong twin !

friday, 19september. its bryan's birthday.

he wanna go to parkway, so the rest of us accompied the birthday boy to parkway.

had lunch at the ground level's foodcourt. the food is fucking expensive !

twinneh and i, shared rojak. costs $3.30 !! and, the youtiao was only 1 short stick.

the rest of the food in the plate, was...... pineapple, apple and cucumber. smart hor ?!

lols. went to pet shop. see doraemon in the dog cage. haha. cute yea.saw these ! very coincidence. :D pig, dogs, zebra and panda. lols !
went to tenaga.. played dai dee and then went to the playground to play catching.

lols. fun fun fun. then went home by 10. :D love my cliques !

WHO WANNA CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY ON 1ST OCT ?? lols !! lelong lelong !

2008-09-16T13:43:00.001+08:00

what the fuck. why cant upload pictures ? what a internet problem.
so lame ~ haha. everything in life also SO LAME !
imma happy girl who only cries in the rain.

its hard for someone to love someone behind that someone.
im sorry to that someone. everything's my fault.

i really hope that everything will change for the better.
is this sentence very familiar ? :D haha ! i've repeated this many times.
i want to be happy, and forget those unhappiness and the hurts in my heart.
please save me, boy. this is all retribution. i deserve to be treated this way.
longed waiting for the right trust. i love you, i love you and i love you.
how long do you need so that i can receive the trust from me ? i really do
love you. i think i might die before u trusted me fully.i love you.

2008-09-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

***HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL !!!!
saw hello kitty, doraemon and elephant mooncake ? haha ! cute isnt it ? :D

2008-09-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

18 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY !
seriously i dont think its gonna be a sweet 16. lols :D

PSP came to school and accompany me !

thursday, sept 11.

met dear at tampines. ate fried fish soup ! then headed back home.

chatted under ahbee's block. saw ahbee :D chatted for awhile then he

went home. not long after ahbee went home, an indian worker came

and waved to dear. it was like.. "huh?" feeling. haha we both dont know

him at all. then he came.. talk talk talk. say working in sg is very tiring.

can see that ! he showed us his hands, there were like black patches,

then he pointed at those patches and said "today i very hardworking,

but money not enough" he showed us his work permit, and he's only 26

years old ! his age is young, but his looks were some how older.

most likely due to hard labour work. ke lian ! then he keep shaking hands with me

and dear.. he looks so happy. and i tink that he's drunk. he also mentioned

that he had been working for 7 years but he dont have enough money to

return to india.. and he miss his family. :( poor guy. but i was quite scared

of him, thought that he might be some pervert ! then i cried. LOL kinda

phobia.. got followed by men before. hate men ! perverttttssss !

friday, sept 12.

school was as usual. played volleyball during PE. haha. hard to play

with many players. but easier to play with 1 V 1. love passing with

twinneh :D haha. went to meet dear after my nap. waited for bus 65.

sitted on the bench while waiting. then a 40+ 50 aged man came

towards me when i didnt notice. i turned and saw him smiling widely

at me. i was shocked... stood up and walked away. some pervert or

mad man, i supposed ? luckily there's 1 guy at the bus stop, and only

super pathetic la. if i were alone, i cant imagine how scary its gonna

be. yucks ! then that pervert boarded bus 60, he kept starring at me

while walking la. damn ! met dear in the bus to tampines. :D bought

PSP casing. 10bucks each. haha. ate long john silver. then went to his

hse to pei his mei :D

saw this at comic's connection. :D

the funny pose of dear. haha !

small eyes appearing ! smile den have small eyes ? or no eyes ?

the pig taking a nap :D

happy moon cake festival to all :D

lantern, candle, lantern, candle :DDD

2008-09-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

21 MoRE DAYS TO MY BIthdAY !
yesterday was the worst nightmare in relationship life.
dont wish to talk about and hope it dont occur to me anymore in my life.
tolerance with only a certain limit. but baby, i love you still..
guys are heartbreakers :DD

today in school was dead damn boring ! twinneh and me played this BINGOOO !
kill time. :D there u go babe twinneh.
haha. after school went home to take a nap then went to tenaga to play bball.
fun fun fun. today's exercise was damn tiring. never felt this way for damn so long.
i think i would only play bball with twinneh and gang, not with dear. bad phobia.
love u twin ! :D thans all for the game. clique 4 ~

dear working on my birthday. who wanna celebrate my birthday for me ? :(
friendships are hard to keep.
relationships are hard to maintain.
thru ups and downs, happiness are only limited. :)

to bitches in my life. read my wishlist, and u know that u are wanted DEAD :DDDDDD

SMILiNG IS AN ANtiDOTE TO uNhAPPiNESS iN LIFe :)

i miss rachel baobei !

2008-09-05T12:46:00.001+08:00

26 MORE DAYS TO My BIRTHDAYYYYY ~
HOLIDAY + EXAM WEEK !
just finished chinese N lvl paper on tuesday the 2nd,
social studies paper on wednesday the 3rd and english paper on thursday the 4th.
WAHHHHH chinese paper was much understandable than prelim's super hard paper.
social studies was surprising !cuz out of the 3 essays, i only studied 1. lols. so lucky !
english paper was disappointing ! T.T due to lack of concentration...paper was a SHIT !
haha. i keep starring at the clock for fuck ?! GRRRRR. baby said that i was stressed.
and and and, hope people in other school dont do as good den can pull up my marks.
LOL. please ahhhhh !! damn. regretted not concentrating. fucking shit !

anyway, went to play bball with the usuals at tenaga. haha. yes ! i sweat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
means lose some fats. lols ! damn la. my sickening tummy is returning !
I WANNA EXERCISE !!!

went back to band to take a look after my S.S papers on wednesday. haha. as usual,
my section is still so shy to play. uh uh uh ? lols. headed up to the band room to play a trumpet.
suprisingly, i can play as normal !!!! thats so unbelievable ! LOL. normally a player dont play
his/her instrument for 1 month, everything changed. but this time i nvr play for bout 11 to 1
year ? haha. i wanna go back to play ! :DD

miss my boy.
treasure everything i have now. cuz... i dont wanna regret in the end :DDDD
no more addiction to SIMS, now addicted to DJmax. but is a noob T.T

my birthday might be a boring one. im sensing it. HAHA !!! :D but its okay !

2008-09-01T19:35:00.000+08:00

L is for the way you look at me.
O is for the only one i see.
V is very very extraordinary.
E is even more than anyone that you adore.
LOVE is all that i can give to you.
LOVE is more than just a game for two.
two and love can make it take my heart and please dont break it.
LOVE was made for me and you.

baby, i love you. and thats only you. i wont think of leaving you anymore.
thanks for holding me so tightly and i felt your heart for me. thanks for
loving me so deeply. i was wrong to let you go. you promised for our future :D
im looking forward for it. i love you, wo ai ni. thanks my boy.
thanks for needing me. i need you too.

2008-08-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

33 DAYS MORE TO MY BIRTHDAY :DDDDD
Friday, 29august.
wooo :D
cute little monkey, trying to steal jiaen's 2dollar note .
went to eunos today, in the bus. my monkey BIG SHOT eh ..

haha.went to suntec's IT fair. walked walked with jiaen, singhong twinneh, guanshen bro
and senghuat. lols. walked....lost 2 times in the fair. LOL. 1st lost is with twinneh, 2nd is
with jiaen. thats so diao ! well, guanshen bought a headphone ! pretty white :D feel like
getting one too. anyway, i dont know where my ear piece is dead to ?! comeon... my earpiece...
then saw graduated students from the school, and saw valerie. well, you know who im talking
about here. :D whom i've hated so much. yet its a surprise to see her. everything's changed :(

after the fair, we headed down to thomson hospital, to see ChenYiXin (: hope she'll get well.
haha. the hospital is private ! and it looks super like HOTEL ! lol. too nice already. oh yea.
took back my report book. but it's at guanshen's there. forgot to take back. i failed 2 subjects !
maths and POA yeah. buck up ! XIANGXIANG, u can do it :D

i wanna be PERFECT !

lastly, a super fucking ugly warped picture of me :D smileeees !

2008-08-27T18:31:00.001+08:00

I WANNA BE A PERFECT GIRL :D

2008-08-26T16:58:00.001+08:00

36 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY ! :D
but only a week to N level mother tongue paper :( on the 2nd.
and social studies on the 3rd. headache arh !

sunday 24,august.
went to bedok to get contact lens and went to NTUC to buy chocolate.
dear bought kinder bueno !!! FAVOURITE :DDDD then saw my mom promoting
kit kat sticks ! haha. went there to say hi. well, didnt really chat lots :(
my family was QUIET kind! :( then we went off. :D love dear !
went to marina square. thought there would be fireworks. but drizzling.
went there..never even see any T.T haha. luckily bought movie tickets !
watched "4bia" with dear, amandis and weilun. :D
dear dear keep saying that he's scared and all. muahahaa ! dumb dumb dear !
the show was nice !
wanna take photo of fireworks.. instead, we took snails. this 1 is huge.

blablabla. well.. my prelim papers. only received science and mother tongue.
total for science is 64/100. chemistry 30/50. physics 34/50. HAHA ! but i not happy !! :( why why tell me why ! i want 75 and above for science =x T.T SO FAR ! oh yea ! and my chinese got........ 51/100. LOL tyco. well, i dont think i can even pass for my N lvl. bcuz.. my oral was a CRAP ! :DDDDD waiting for other paper's results. POA wasnt my best :(

monday, 25 august.
got 1 malay bitch in my class wanna scold me ytd . LOL !! i talk talk den she scold me shut up. HAHA. shut up leh ! i just kpkb den she scold me fuck. then i replied "u got cheebye?, u got lanjiao? fuck me la" muahahahaha. then diam diam -.- ! lamo. she think she style her hair with wax.. i scared ah ? LOL u need wax to style your cheebye hair ? :D dont know how to answer me den ownself shutup man. BITCH ! :D

dear made me cry ! haha. then i hit him :D kenna his luohan head. SORRY BABY. i didnt mean toooooooooo hurt you :( fair and square la ! today my eye swollen like goldfish. :DDD

today, mom came home with this ! she said my chinese tcher called to tell her that i
passed my chinese. since 16 years !! my reward for passing ! :D well, because i told her
that.. my parents dont reward my hard work ! so i dont have to work harder =x

SO NIAO ! buy 1 packet only :( i gonna finish all alrdy la. thanks mom :'(

2008-08-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

38 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY :D

LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.
yeah yeah! see how "good" am i. lol ! :D

:( i miss dear. wonder what's he's doing now. reply me so slow. :(
im gonna watch my drama liao. humph ! :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(.......
today gonna watch movie :D "4bia" it should be quite nice. cuz its the
same producer as "shutter" and body18" great shows :D WHOOOO !!
wanna watch fireworks ! wanna watch movie ! today will be fun hor ? :)
dont let my hopes go down the drain. MUAHAHAH !
sian tmr got school FUCK ! boring :( ..... __

2008-08-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

39 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY !! :DD

im feeling so lonely now !!
YESTERDAY; anni. cut hair for dear. LOL bloody shit ass him.. :(
got no confidence in me de. :( go black face me while im cutting his
damn hair. although its my 1st time la! i think i got future :D LOL !!!
bloody dear. but i know he like that hair after all ;P HAHAHA !!
sickening. went to his house to kill time while watching tv.. waiting for
that slow pork to bathe and eat. SO LONG ! hai me cannot play bball.
*TOOT* dear. haha ! had fun tickling him and elbow his thigh :D
and he hugged me to sleep. like for 5mins ? -.- ! LOL but he really can
sleep. bloody pig. make me feel like a bolster; an object lying there.
LOVE YOU LUH! :] dumb dumb tooooty :D
anniversary cut hair; SPECIAL hor ? hahaha !

dear... why u have duty today ? IM SOOOO LONELY !!
watch fireworks with me hao ma ? :D
listen to love songs, i felt so in love with you. you put drugs into the
songS ? dumb dumb, i miss you :(

in searching for more song ~

2008-08-22T12:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1 year 1 month ANNI with DEARRRRRRR ~

40 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY OKKKK ?

thanks for those who asked me to cheerup :D IM FINE !!! THANKS ! hahaha :D
muahaha ! today had the last prelim papers ! POAAAAA ~

so hard la the paper 1. damn assssss :( managed to do only 2 questions then all K.O

lolS !! sickening right right right ?

MEOW !

dumb dumb PETER CHOY !

i love you la. dont say i bad to you ok ?

I WANT WATCH FIREWORKS ! ! !

my FONE got virus ? does fone have virus anyway ? when i charge my fone,

this appeared "Charging, alien battery" its like.. UH ? what ?

i wanna be designer :D

my new dreaaaam ! come on. im gonna study hard kay ?! i wont let anyone look

down on me. fuck off man ! HAHAHAHAHA ! im gonna succeed in life. WOO !

[[actions speak louder than words]] opps. CRY !!

got these pictures from email. hope those who doesnt get this can smileeeee too :]

only took a portion of it. i find it rather funny :DDD just wanna share with many.

this is what sad looks like.-

this is what sorry looks like.-

PRIVACY please -

i'd rather hold it-

police hard at work -

this is going to hurt-

how to handle a problem with your neighbour -

this will make you smile :)

thats all i've took :D smilees ! :]

i miss rachel baobeiiii :)

2008-08-19T18:36:00.001+08:00

43 more days to my BIRTHDAY !

had english paper 2 and history paper today. haha. cannot even concentrate,
wrong mood for exam. damn. anyway its prelim. hope its not a fail :D
not right for having exams now :( JIAYOU MYSELF .

im missing you badly.
i dont know what can we do. i dont know what he had become.
i really love you. but why i hate you whenever you are angry with me.
when i look into my display picture in my phone, i felt angry and hatred.
after all these, i felt that i rely so much on you. that i cant live without you.
laughing and joking with buddies that we wanna break relationships with
boyfriends. but when it comes to real thing, i really wanna run away.
i kept telling myself that i dont want this relationship.
but my heart doesnt wanna give up. why do i need you so much ? because
i love you. i need you. i want you.
i dont want your money. i wont run away with whatever u gave me even
though i couldnt return the money u've spent on me. i'll give you my heart.
one sentence you said, hurt me super hard. i dont know why :( it hurts deeply.
im beginning to try talking so much, but shit came out from my mouth.
which always made you angry. sorry boy, i didnt mean it. i only want a smile.
im already openning my heart. you see ? but im scared now. more and more...

we msg like strangers who dont know each other. climb so high yet fall so
deeply underground. commiting suicide by jumping down the building.
im really so scared to face you. i dont know how to make u smile. i dont
know and cannot be ur perfect one. im always joking with the wrong statements.
i just really hope to make u laugh with me. thinking of those times when we
really laughed, were very very very little.

yes im sex-ist and i hate guys. guys are heartbreakers. im sorry.
because i've got fucking hurt, cheated and blamed for once, and guys are who i hated.
BABY, I LOVE YOU . DONT BE COLD TO ME. FORGIVE ME. WO BU SHI GU YI DE.... :'(
baby im not blaming you :(

i still fucking hate that bastard. pray he fucking have no girlfriend and fucking go
out let ppl whack. i hate that bitch too. fucking slut with small tits acting cute like
what the asshole she is. made my boyfriend have this phobia which i have to cure.
hate that bitch most ! hai me and hai my boy. i want u to pay double, slut ! SLUT !
fuck playgirl, fuck playboy. hope they die together hand in hand, fucking each other.
fucked up ! they made me hate guys ! its not my fault ! fuck that retarted couple.

smiling is a joke in life. :]
monkey, will you wake up and talk to me one day ? please console me baby.
monkey please talk to me .

2008-08-18T17:59:00.000+08:00

i heard a biggest joke from my mother tongue tcher~
she said that i passed my paper 1 and 2. this is unbelievable.
another big joke,
my brother bought a bicycle for $1000?!?! -.- ? he's having 3 bikes now.
plus me, 4. i think we can go for family cycling event. 1k is damn ex.. but
its his money anyway ^^.

today chatted with the girls. singhong twin, zoe and chenchen. lols. me, twin
and zoe are attached accept chenchen. 3 attached, stress..course of BOYFRIENDS !!
anyway, i wanna learn to be like my baobei rachel ;D
: guys, nono control girl. :D
plus... relationship= control? haiz... & always quarrel. twinneh boy give her bad attitude.
LOL are all guys attitudeRS ? -.- ! always bad mood den scold us; girls de :( im not the
only one experiencing this. AND !, guys are heartbreakers. HAHA =x
girl=wrong. guys=right.
girl see boy=wrong. guys see girl= right.
what daaaaaaa ? lols =x girls, we shld FIGHT ! xD

anyway, hope i can last long with dear.
& pray my bad dream isnt gonna be true. too stressed till even had nightmare.
i dont want u to be like my mom. i hope you understand. i hated her & i love her, i guess. :)
savings are long termed, spendings are short termed. no savings= doomed shit.

i miss baobei rachel.

2008-08-17T12:55:00.001+08:00

45 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY !! :D
muahaha ! early countdown !!!!!!! :D
awww. hope i got lots of presents. LOL "hope" xD

yesterday rain rain :( hai me have to wait for the rain to stop.
then in the end too late to go le. plus me and dear quarreled =x
first time so bloody pissed off till i keep shouting at him over the
fone. sorry baby. i didnt mean to... but ur TOOOOOT ! HAHAHA=x
and PICNIC CANCELLED !! :'( oways event cancel de, SOB !
went over to tampines. find dear, then amandis at the bball court.
played bball with dear. haha. he look so shuai when he shoot ball.
but ! most of the ball nvr go in de =x HAHA !! the net there is super
high la. not used to it. but had fun :D love dear boy.
raced car in PSP; need for speed. I WON DEAR 3/3 TIMES !!!
hahaha. this 1 muz action abit ma =x HAHA !! dear so toooty !
yeah yeah yeah yeah ! big gap ahead. dear, look ! who's the pro? ME !
hahahahah =x !

this few days boring ah.. no pictures to describe my days !
yawn.. prelim is nxt week and i haven started revising. :( damn !
im too into SIMS. hahaha ! flirt shit game D:

i miss my bad boy.
i miss rachel baobeiiii.
:D

PSP,PSP :D

2008-08-16T10:31:00.000+08:00

on the 12th of august.
baby bought psp[grey] ! 1 for me and 1 for him. sorry :( wasted ur money so
bloody much ! im addicted to need for speed earlier. but now im addicted
to sims! thanks amandis for sending us gameeeees !
THANKS DEAR !

went out to tampines ytd, to the big giant, courts and ikea ! played psp while walking
all the way. psp, my 2nd boyfriend now :D thank dear for finding me a 2nd boyF !
keep playing metal slug with dear tgt. lols. super fun.

i wanna play audition. BUT i wanna play sims more. can flirt leh. lols !! cool yea.
woolalalalas ! :D
sorry baby for the misunderstanding just now. :( tot it would repeat again. hugs.

i miss rachel baobei..
i better start studying =x
RELINKED ~

2008-08-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

i love my boy.
whenever i look into your eyes, u made me secure.
u made me happy when im sad. u made me jealous and let me pinch u.
pinch as hard as i could. when my muscle aches, u send me hme by cab.
when u know im gonna get scolding when i return home late, u console me.
not to make me jealous, u explain every small things.
sorry baby. i treat u bad :( i love you :D

PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP
PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP
PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP PSP :DD

thanks hazel, for reading my blog and sending me a msg asking me to cheerup :]
imissthepastwehadtogether :D

2008-08-10T12:44:00.001+08:00

monkey difference !! seeeee ! T.T no monkey is cuter than mine !!!!
same brand same model but different look. you cant win my cutest kid.

yesterday was national day. got the wrong mood :(
cant even see the fireworks ! fucking ruined day........................................
jiaen ~~ u said i will enjoy. i didnt enjoy. why nvr come save me ? :(
only enjoyed watching movie *money not enought 2* HAHAHA.

my sweeeeet popcorn .
nobody can understand what im thinking. muahahahahaahahaha !!!
i love you, i hate you.
i like you, i dislike you.
i know you, i dont know you.
who am i ?
what am i ?
why am i ?
MUAHAHAHA ~!!! :D

IM STRONG !! but why are there so many things going around in my mind ?
i cant stop them. but why ? :( please shut my mind up :D thankyou .
i just want to shut up :]
are you thinking what im thinking? NO :DDD
tadaaaaaaas ~!!!

happy = sad. sad = happy. life = death. muahaha ! staying alive with regrets in life :D

2008-08-09T12:33:00.000+08:00

lalala. im blogging again..
whoots ! do not buy tis. tiramisu. not as good as the chocolate flavour ~!
zilian first lor. lols.
baby and me.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY ~!!!

played bball for so many hours yesterday. frm 1+ to 7+. rawr !!!! now leg aching like

hell ! :( today is national day ! must see fireworks nah :D

i miss my boy, sorry for not talking so much on the phone with you :( i love you .

i want monneeeeeeeeeeeeyyyy !! :X

2008-08-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

ELMo WORLd ~
the day elmo came to school with me ! hiding behind my water bottle. hide and seek ah ?

well, look ! HOD of humanities slacking ! wrote a question on the board, and there she goes ~
hello everybody, i am elmo. i only know how to smile and smile. but no teeth !
sunday 3/o8 ? :D met dear dear for outing !
and me ! acting cute with the smiley king .

aww. baby's having duty today. well, i miss him :D cant wait for our PSP !

he even bought elmo for standby keychain for PSP. hahah ! i love you boy :D

hope it really come true uh !! gonna revise my s.s soon :( prelim is 2 days AWAY !!

:D whoots !

out of audition. rawr !! =X too bored flirting. :(

2008-08-02T15:36:00.000+08:00

tadaa ! back for blogging. tis is my act cute face. LOL ! :Dfriday; august 1st .

haha. morning, got called out by mr Goh, HOD of mother tongue. yawn. jiaen too got
called. mr goh talked to us about misbehaving in chinese class. lols. too noisy uh ?
then he brought us to V.principal. -.- she talk talk talk.. old hag. LOL. then keep asking,
"why must you go to sec5 with this attitude?", "if ur not happy here, u can change school".
LOL !! i really hope the school will close down bcuz of her stupid words. haha then she talk..
i was looking at other places.. then she ask me whether is there anything bothering me or not.
then she wanted to offer me to counselling. lols. like eh ? am i going to be mad ? lols. but
seriously im listening to her but my mind was thinking of something else. mayb im really
going to me mad person in the future. xD

anyway, played volleyball for PE. haha. 1st time playing it and hurt my arm !! ouchy.
and middle finger went NUMB. haha. can point freely.

after school, went bugis with jiaen, singhong twinneh, grace, zoe and chenchen.
met my mother at the bus top. she was going to pray near bugis. haha. so coincidence.
so.. took the same bus with my mom. i acted like we talked much but the fact is..
our relation wasnt good. :(

haha. jiaen sleeping. the lady in pink is my mother; sleeping too .

chenchen and zoe went off first. while waiting for singhong twinneh and grace in the toilet, we zilian !... haha. learnt from jiaen ~
i dont look nice :( haha. naturally im not pretty anw :D
grace bought mochi !

yummy. :D inside is icecream, while the outside is just a skin.

then met baby. he came to bugis. when he saw my friends, he get so paiseh then walked away !!!! idiot :( haha! there's nothing to paiseh about. lalalala ~ ate kfc with dear, then went home. brother guanshen msged me ! he said he saw us in the bus. LOL. i didnt see. hahahaha :D well.. its 7th month wor. then went down to pray.. but i was having menstration. :( cant pray. rawr !! hope i dont get disturbed :D i love dear.

all i ever wanted was love from my family, encouragement, happiness and care. haha. you all will never understand what i needed. pass my exams / fail my exams, remarks are forever the same..SAME.. :D you dont motivate me, you dont encourage me, you dont point out my hard work. this is what you've made me. :D your no confidence daughter. loves ?

saturday; 2/o8/o8.

woke up in the morning then check on eBay for PSP. haha. envied my friends who bought PSP la. haha. saw one white psp for $255. yesterday chenchen said that she wanna sell her psp. i offer her $250, she dont want and said that she'll lose money. eBay selling 1st hand for $255. lols. i dont know. anyway, its dear buying :DDDD loves !! parents dont wanna buy for me, i still have my boy to support me. but im not after him for his money. i love him (: the most sincere guy i've met in my 16 years of life. loves lots .

baby was working T_T.. have to wait for him till tomorrow to discuss bout the buying of PSP. he even bought the elmo chain for PSP. lols. everything was so advanced uh ! waiting for my love...

yeah ! i bought 4D ! lols . BIG $2. for 3 days. RAWR !!! 1048 huat ahhh ~ LOL. nvr strike also ok la. buy for luck only. still remembered this number, daddy got from temple in a red packet nearly chinese new year. whhile eating steamboat, auntie turned on 4D draw and the 1st number i saw is that lucky number !!! but sadly, i didnt follow my daddy's instruction to buy. haha its ok. whats mine is mine. love this number :D goodluck tonight. lols :D

4.23PM

2008-07-30T19:27:00.001+08:00

AUDITION~
made a new friend in audi, named creamyymiko. she's so nice to me :D
we call each other ai ai . we played together. then dj said no entry for those
not wearing white. then she bought me a acash skirt ! for like nothing !
we didnt know each other in real life yet she used money to buy it.
then i keep saying that the monkey is cute and all. then she bought me a monkey !
althou its all 30days limitions. but total, i've calculated.. its S$10.80 !! from a "stranger"

how i wish that its true that i can have a monkey pet :D
sit down de cute monkey :D
dear and me, with our child LOL. see monkey so cute.
while waiting for dear to get ready to meet, i get ZILIAN ~
stupid mouth. hahahhaha ! with mr rabbit :D

see the NERD !

wednesday; 30july.

haha. look at these bears ! who are they looking at ??

ah EN !! these babies are *jiayou-ing* her to finish her work :D

haha. chinese tcher force en to go up to express. althou i dont like tcher to force her,its also better for her to go up to express la :D haha. dont wanna pull her down with me. today we had an Laugh-Out-Loud chinese lesson while playing these bears. haaa !tcher get so pek chek with us. -.- dont like her to nag. but my ears are blocked for her ! :D

sorry le grace. just now in class, the letter i've wrote confirm is so hurtful la. :( leave the past and move forward, i guess thats what i wanna do :D i hated so many people la :D LOL =X see you cry, i feel very bad and guilty ..hope everything will really change for the better. me too need to change for the better :D xiangxiang jiayou !

i wanna learn to have a HARD heart ! dont wanna be so soft hearted. i always curse a person behind them, but didnt have to courage to fcuk them upside down infront of the person cuz i'll feel extremely guilty and bad de. *do what that is right, because its right :D*: sentence from "letters from iwo jima" watched with dear yesterday. a show about japan getting invaded by america. touching la, see those ppl acted dying for their country ! brave man ~

read a blog last few days from barbara. its about this couple whom have been together tgt for 4 long years. but one day, the guy died from heart attack. every posts about the girl's life was damn sad. when i read it, i just hold on to my tears. its like every posts are so damn touching. the guy just suddenly left her. she describes what he does for her, they lived tgt too. so sweet for all the photos of the 2 couple. if it happens to me, i'll really go insane. like im left with nothing. i admire her. she's so brave :] ~*treasure ur love ones b4 anything happens.*~

gtg play audition alrdy :DDDD

2008-07-27T10:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday, after smsing dear for so long. managed to get together again at 7++

:( i miss him. i just dont wanna quarrel anymore baby. can we refrain from that?

eee ytd say wanna go swimming one. then ended up not going. yawn ! ytd slack

at his house. eat dinner, watch tv. haha 1st time at his hse watch tv till 12. RAWR !

dear is working now.. i miss him badly. put the past behind us, i will. but sorry baby,

if they come back to me and affect me, please hug me tight and say everything is gonna

be alright. i love you. whenever im giving up, console me dont scold me(: your the man

i want. but i cant help myself to be depressed. believe me, if ther's no quarrel in our

relationship, i'll be perfectly fine. i'll change. i love you !

rachel baobei, your the best girl in my life. after not meeting for so long, ur care for me

is still so strong. i miss our past, our madness, our happiness. cursing people whom we

hated, laughing out loud in the public[not even shy], u care for me so much that i dont

know what to give you in return. you understand me and give me what i need. i love

you even thou imma girl and ur a girl. complicating yet simple, ur the girl in my life.

friday 15/7. in the toilet :D jiaen, me and singhong twin.

look at my cute lil baby. can u imagine that ANTS and build their NEST under my

hammy's cage ??????? they shall die ! grrr. im gonna kill all of you idiots !

make my hammy suffer, u'll suffer DOUBLE. pay me the price :D

2008-07-26T11:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday 25th july. went to 85 market with dear and met rachel baobei,
her boyfriend and javier. saw xiumin and those butch friends. so handsome.
haha. even rachel baobei also say that they are handsome.. lols. then i told
dear.. then he ask me to stead with them. we ate stingray, veg and omelette.
nice (: yummy(:
but didnt know what to talk to them. cuz like very long never talk le. baobei
is still so caring as ever. i love you baobei ! u understand me the most :( i love you..
sorry dear bout yesterday, quarreled bcuz of me.. stupid dumb mouth. if i nvr
talk jiu nothing happen alrdy. dont know why i got this so dumb brain in this
stupid me. so fucking irritating. baby, please be patient towards me :( i love you..
sorry le. ytd is a good day but i ruined it.

hope today wont rain ! i wanna go swimming with dear :(
i like cold and warm water. but dear like warm water only :( then i anyhow tink..
sigh.. stupid mind. still ask myself why we like different stuffs. :( sun sun sun, please
dont stop shinning to us. i wanna swim today. i love you sun. sorry baby, i'll try not
to think so much. i hope u too. i love you.

miss dear.
miss rachel baobei. thanks baobei (:

haha. just quarreled with dear in audi. sorry baby. im too unreasonable.
i just wanted to tell you how much i hated quarrels, and we really began quarreling.
i want to open my heart, but im too afraid if i do, u'll stab me. halfway opening, u
cut my skin. sorry baby. give me time. i'll change for the better. i'll be the perfect
girlfriend for you, like how other girls treat their boyfriends. i'll be like them.
i wont condemn our relationship anymore. i must change for the better. i'll change.
because of me . . .

i wanna cut myself.
i wanna suffer. i need outer pain to get rid of the inner pain !
help me, save me. its painful in here.

thanks rachel baobei for listening to my unhappiness. thanks alot. i love you.

2008-07-25T17:28:00.000+08:00

just returned home from mac. studied with jiaen, singhong twin, zoe, chenchen
and grace. its drizzling now. im gonna meet dear in audi already ! :D
love my boy. he's soooo gong la !! today he returned home frm work at bout 11.
then he wanna rest. so i msg him to tell him that if he wake up alrdy then msg
me. but he told me to msg him when i finished studying. then we ended waiting
for each other's msg till 4++ !!! T_T so sad. awww. hahahhaha. but its ok ! cuz
we'll see each other soon anyway . LOVES babyboy.
saw hazel tagged my tagboard. :( i miss you too, hazel. sorry. i didnt know what to do.
but i seriously miss you too girl. :(
baby and i intended to have a dinner with rachel baobei ! but she didnt reply
baby :( hope we will eat tgt sooooo soon !!! i miss rachel baobei too :D

its audi time !! hope can go dear's tampines there 840++ play bball :D got shelter.
so cool. LOLS. love my boy :D its audi time !!! will blog soon.
i will study ^^.

2008-07-24T17:38:00.001+08:00

wednesday; 23/o7/o8
went to dear's place. amandis and barbara was baking cookies !!
look! amandis's creation. she made both a guy and a girl haha. however, her
girl lost a her hair so she gave it to me! yummy. its butter cookieeeee !
delicious. i didnt know cookie is so simple.. add flour, water and butter and
BAKE ! :D i want to bake too ! cant resist eating the cookie. :P
thanks amandis and barbara for the deliciouuus cookieee !!!
ate dear's mom cooked de curry fish. the super nice taste of curry
fish. but cant find fish meat in there. awww. i truely miss curry fish head. :(
didnt talk to my auntie;maid. she's always giving me black face.. well, im not
gonna talk to her anyway. but i wanna learn to cook curry fish :D

amandis's girl cookieeeee.
how u shld eat it ~

next, bite her legs !
then her hands !
and her body.
byebye cookie :D YUMMY ~

thursday;24/o7/o8
had super boring class today. its a thursday ! and thursday's lessons are super
boring ! crying for help in class due to the super bored lessons... 1 and a half hours
of english ! -.-,
1 hour of POA.. + - + - dead* ,
1 hour of maths.. + - + - dead + dead= super dead*,
half and hour of humanities.. -.- self study again. i just hope that, that idiot tcher
dont have to come into the class. every lesson is either group work or self essay.
1 hour of chemistry.. chemical + chemical = bomb.
then HOME SIAN HOME ! but i love my daddy (:
reached home to nap frm 2 to 5 :D yay im energized now !
baby is working 24hours. xin ku him le. i love my boy ! my firefighter.

still have problem deciding what to be in the future. career of what ? being who?
so much thinkings yet didnt have a goal in life. my korkor talked to me yesterday,
and i told him that i didnt know what i wanna be, how to continue studying ? some
courses cannot be found in the poly, but can be found in the ITE. but go ITE, wont all
our aunties will laugh at us ? my mother hinted me that she didnt want me to go ITE.
yeah i wanna go poly ! but im scared, bcuz i still cannot find what i wanna be in the
future. who dont want to earn big money yea? afraid that if i go to sec5.. o lvl fail..
then have to drop to ITE, waste 1 year. O lvl isnt easy lor :(
i'll have a deep thought over it (:
audition time !

i've edited the blogskin . putting the posts in the middle.

is it messy ? like far left and far right of the page, there's something distracting the eyes ?

2008-07-23T14:25:00.000+08:00

spent only a few hours with my baby boy yesterday. i love him :]took 65 to bugis junction. bought cream puffs and ate at the food court on the 3rd level. had this delicious dinner. haha. like the sause. then went to bugis street to shop for handbag for me and a shorts for baby.went to zinc in bugis street. dear wanna buy me this bag. cost $48. SO EX !i looked at the price and say "no". but dear still bought that for me. cuz he knows that i want it. LOL. after all, i feel damn bad :( it was discounted to $46. i love dear !! i bought for him a shorts for $28. ONLY ! :(
he bought a so ex thing for me leh T.T i love you dear. thanks !! all the stupid oral's fault !
hai me and dear cannot celebrate long long. anyway im gonna fail my oral HAHAHAH !

went home by bus 65 again. look at our cream puff ! the mistake of not eating earlier !
my lovely puffs :( ~ DEAR BUY ME PUFFY AGAIN !~~~

there. the handbag. *big opened up*
the smaller version. can clip it to make it small. cute lo :D small one nicer. thanks dear !!!!! :D

my audition boy character LOL.

hanna ! dunno how to spell actually.. my and twinneh's hand :D
toot !

im waiting for baby's 1 year anni present for me ! hahaha. haiz i didnt make dear
cry when he read the letter. failed ~ T.T lols.
dear said that he wanna buy me a cactus. lols. then every year anni collect cactus.
HAHA . i love you boy. sorry to waste so much of your money yesterday. heartbroke.
baby dont scold me anymore ok ? i dont like u when u scold me, in fact i hated you :(
i hate ppl to scold me.. like i have no brains like that. u make me sad, i muz make u
sad too ! LOL !!!! =X i loveeee you !!!

2008-07-22T17:57:00.000+08:00

happy 1 year/365 days with peter asclepius choy !
love my baby boy sooo much ! hehe. tried to prepared stuffs for him. reached
home at 4 plus and rushed everything. stupid chinese oral.. ate up the time for
us ! :( idiot. i love my boy ! :D anyway, i've done badly for the oral. LOL !!! =X
meeting boy so soon ! cant wait. love love love ~

wah today kinda not happy with alot of tchers. history, english and physics tcher.
so yucks. they are so biased sia. biased to malay girls in my class. of cuz la ! like fucking
duh ! history and english tcher is also malay ~ LOL. they talk, we chinese talk, we kenna
scolding. damn la. this is so fucking irritating. then physics leh ? form tcher sia... step !
wan say me.. only those malay girls who are your favourites wanna study ya ? LOL.
love them badly wor ~ all love them la. fuck all tchers ! BIASED !!

went to chaichee sec for chinese N lvl oral today. wahaha. reached the school, i heard
someone calling for my name. and its WEIMING ! hmmm, some old friend. lols. haha.
i find it so cool la. go other school yet got ppl know me LOL ! blush blush* LOL
anyway, oral suck today. HAHAHAHA =X fucking dunno how to read and dont wanna
answer the tcher for conversation. haha. nvm la. i dont intend to consider chinese as
my important subject. =X

cant wait to go to 85 market with dear and baobei rachel ! :D
oh yea, hazel viewed me in friendster and i dropped her a testi. she replied me!
just missed so much about the past. with my baobei rachel and hazel. well, lets look forward
into life ! :D forever memories~
okay !! gotta go prepare for meeting my boy.
a new year, a new hope. we hope that there will be lesser quarrels.
may our love be strong and have no 3rd party within us. i love my boy, 1 and only boy.
22.o7.o7~22.o7.o8

2008-07-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

currently waiting for dear to wake up. he worked 24hours at station yet
only received bout 2hours of sleep ? :( hope dat he's fine.
thanks dear, rachel baobei, jiaen, singhong twin for the consoles.
loves all of them ! really miss rachel jie. so long dint see her le. hope dat
she's fine. so gan dong that she still cared so much for me :D loves lotS !

monday is racial harmony day. wah. dont know whether got costume to
wear anot. lols. skali i next year cant graduate.. then tis wld be the last
time wearing costumes to school sia. lols. but CHOY la ! xD

tuesday is gonna be 1 year anni with dear ! :DDD
but ! having N lvl oral after school.... -.- !!! waste my time. im the 7th pupil.
like damn ! :( idiot...

im soooo bored...
gonna play audi :D
miss dear dear dear,
miss rachel baobei; wanna see her !! :D
miss and thanks friends closest to me xD

2008-07-15T17:55:00.000+08:00

sunday ;13/o7/o8.

went to east coast's lan shop with dear and his cousins. played audi and cs together.

lol. i forced dear to be my noob account's twin. haha !!cute ma ? bombed hair. bombs away ~

then ate steamboat ! roughly 15bucks per person. considered cheap compared to soul garden ! haha. free flow ice cream too ! :P
twinneh's new teddy key chain. they are "brothers" !! my monkey look so dao*

history is treaty of versailles. me is treaty of nurmah ! she's sooooo biased to malays.

tuesday; 15/o7/o8.

yesterday i went home and told my dad and maid that i didnt go for chinese remedial.

they make noise.. then later jiu settle already. then i went out over to dear's place.

then went home in the night. then brother asked me why i didnt go for the remedial.

that old lady called my mother. and all started to pin me ! like damn assholes =.= !!!

then my auntie over there kaopei kaobu . =.= !!! she already knew it in the afternoon la !

its like.. what the fuck she wants? then i told them dat i didnt wanna concentrate on a dead

subject. if i really can pass my chinese, why wait till sec4 still cannot pass ? then like diao !

that bitch auntie is just a bloody fucking maid. yet she talk big, talk loud and talk cock in my hse.

damn mother fucker. na bei.. nobody in the house understands me ! NOBODY. fucking hate

them all. really feel like leaving this house. they already knew dat i only do last minute study.

if i study now, everything will be forgotten the next week. no point revising then. they fucking

dont understand. the worse is that mad dog. she kept barking at me. like for fuck ? i cannot

stand her then i scream at her la. she say thing till damn OVER. say what "u think u and ur

boyfriend can last meh ? u all so young... in the end oso wont last long one la" , "ask you study,

then what u do? everyday boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend, ask him to takecare of you la. dont

nid to study ok ? i think u shld stop studying " -.- sibei sian of my family la. u call this CARE OR
FORCE ? i doubt that its care. if you really care, you shld listen to my opinions and stay out

of forcing me. felt fucking stress. its like.. dont want me to study right? fine ! want my boyF to

takecare of me right? i move. fine ! -.- damn asses. feel like killing dat dog seriously.

my brother might understand me. cause he persuade me to take CLB-chinese language basic

next year.. u wanna nag ? u wait till i fail my N lvl then nag. u dont bloody stress me now or i

really wont study.

i miss my dear boy. thanks dear for making me feel alot better. and friends too made me feel

better. i really wanna leave house soon. they are burning me inside. all the dog maid's fault.

she's over too much. i really miss my boy. just feeling low now. dear wanna bring me go gai gai

tomorrow. cant wait to not stay at home. see dog and dad's face. sigh. i love my dad. but why

he and the dog so close till he side for her ? sigh. damn family.

im gonna write a bloody email to my auntie in holland soon. i know she loves me too.

2008-07-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

friday;11/o7/o8.
pissed off some how. had PE at 8.30am. walked out of class, hearing the next class's
student 4g, shouting "xiangxiang sucks" well, i just walked away, maybe what that
fellow saying was for fun. came back from PE, twinneh's pencil box was lost. so damn
suspected that those people stole her stuffs. twinneh was kinda sad duh. like..fark the
mother of the stealer !
during PE, that farking fatass whom i hated, came to apologise to me. so yea.. apologise.
but the stealing part ? i cant doubt that its his friends who have done it. maybe they
wanna attack me but accicdentally stole twinneh's case ? bloody farking dumbass .
i dont suck ! i rawk ! :D

went to meet dear after i had a nap :] went to his house to watch a comedy movie..
then went to 840 there de basketball court to meet his mei; amandis :D but she was
not there at first. so we walked to the central park. dear was so stressed up with his
station life. i really hoped that i made him feel better. sorry dear, i cant do better :(
haha then we kinda quarrel X.X i thought dear didnt wanna care bout me..cuz i joke
with him.. then he like dont wanna listen. but its bcuz he's too stressed then didnt know
how to react. abit too emotional. after that, we went to the bball court !! managed to
play. haha ! im improving ! dear is deproving :D lol !!! and went home after that :]
cant wait for the zoo outing . hope that its true !

farking photos time ! ~

cant fine the perfect black coloured sweet . boredom in MT class.

bryan says: FUCK MIIE ! =)

acting retard. i see twisties poping out of nowhere on my table !

baby picture. i guess its 1++ years old . lol. ~bogay !

brother and me. i show u my pampers !! *toot*

DEAR'S POP pictures ~

baby's fire batch ! :D

its all soooo blur ! small man ! haha.

fire engine ladders ? ;D saw people committing suicide ?
they are the propellers ! baby was actually propelling, but he switched post with

his friend ! haha. then baby became the big bird in yellow suit. the special man !

aka sir :D so handsome but dint managed to catch it :(

eee oh eee oh eee oh ! superman to the rescue !
which 1 is my boy ? hmmm ...
CDA, civil defence academy. cool lor :D

tadaa. nothing to write about already. baby's on duty today. shall meet him tomorrow. miss him badly right now. so bored today ! better start revising my books today !

baby! i rmb ! if i get to poly, u owe me a laptop ! xD !!

things that dear owed me ! :
1. zoo outing !
2. driving me arnd in his bike ! [future]
3. bens & jerry !
4. handbag !
5. prepare meeting with rachel baobei !
6. wild sex ! LOL kidding. next time then say ~

ilovemyboy !

i miss my boy;
i miss my rachel baobei;
i miss my friends;
i wanna be a perfect girl !

2008-07-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

just came back home from school. baby piggy boy is still napping.
i bet he was tired :( haha. ok ! just received his msg. he was awake now.
wah today damn fed up while putting my stuffs under my table. angry
with that farking malay fatass in my class. i not happy with him so long
already. damn asshole. fark his mother sai kang ! cb kia .. so fat dunno
how to see where he's going ah ? cannot see his toes ??? LOL !!! like what
the hell... 5 chairs in a row, he walk like king kong lidat.. then all the chair
went out of line. PLUS 1 of it is MINE !! dumbass. of cuz i not happy la !!
wah den i black face him and "tsk" at him then i put my stuffs under the desk.
then i heard giggling voices behind me. when i turn, i saw dat fatass keeping
his finger. OBVIOUSLY HE'S TRYING TO POINT ME A MIDDLE FINGER.
even a dog also can see that. cb.. then i diao him and stare at him with my super
black face.. then friends kinda ask me to relax. then walked out den he like
wanna fight wanna fight lidat. ma de ! so fat yet so action. u can chase me den
say la ! LOL. i just ren only. wait till one day i really blow up, then i really can
show my damn temper. anyway, i got chilled so fast after that. jiaen, singhong,
grace and me went to the bookshop to order some named stickers ! so cute. lols.

went home and told my auntie;maid and dad bout the malay fatass thing. LOL.
dad asked me to punch his nose if he make me angry again. dad ! u rawk !!!
he's farking supporting me la ! so i shall not give face the next time. hate the
fatass ! smelly asshole. anyway, i dont think he has a penis ! because, he tired
to bully a girl. =.= !!!

anyway, oh ya ! took height and weight last friday ! haha. happy daoooo ~
height 159cm; haven grew since the biginning of the year ! :D
then weight is 45kg; lost 2kg. damn happy. well, im gonna maintain my weight.
and gonna go jogging with dear; i was forced to jog with him ... :D
gonna get ready to meet my cute boy !
shall blog soon again !!

2008-07-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

sunday 6/o7/o8.
went out with dear, amandis and weilun. went to golden moult ; dunno how to spell.
haha. saw many gays over there. got 1 was like omg ! its a man bout age 40+..
long curly grey hair with wrinkles on his face. wore purple tight fit shirt which was
half cut; can see the stomach & belly. carrying a handbag. haha. cute sia ! alot of
thai people. so cool. pei-ed dear into the boxing shop. its like.. SO COOL ! haha.
all the fighter's boxers, head band and boxing gloves. wanna take picture but paiseh.
so swee :D dint find any handsome thai over there... except that mix blood boy bside
me ! my gong gong dear. LOL. went over to funan IT mall to collect this free ipod
shuffle. bro's insurance giving it for free. :D
pretty ipod shuffle !

slim shaddy ~
small leh. haha. im scared that i lose it :( the max volume is loud too :D so happy.
after that, we went to bugis for some cream puff. that was the worst cream puff i've ever
eaten ! WHY ? cuz i was too moody and down to taste the tasty puff :( dear dear keep
wanting to buy new gadgets while in the IT mall. i was afraid that he might want to spend his
money on new laptop, mp4 and more ! cuz he kept saying that he wanna buy those :(
i think too much and didnt wanna talk to him. plus ! he didnt care to come to me also.
so damn sad that i broke down at the bus stop. damn boy :( i walk slow bcuz im sad ! i walk
fast bcuz im angry ! u dont understand still ? T.T dissappointed that he didnt come to me..
felt so damn lonely that time. and when i cry, he feel paiseh ! grrr. u getting paiseh or me
more important ? T.T meow !!! but now ok le la. hope dear will be more patient to me.
iloveyou:D

monday; 7/o7/o8.
it was youth day ! went to east coast park with the band :D ! well, didnt really took
any pictures. but it was quite ok. didnt really had fun thou, but i still miss the past :D
i felt a big gab between me and my juniors. i didnt really know what to do :( well, i just
hope dat we'll bond :D got too tired and sleepy, so i wanted to meet dear. groups set
off at 6++.. we walked from the damn far end of east coast, near a fishing jetty behind
the big eatery ! till mcdonalds underpass.. then to marine parade !!! :( the longest road
i've ever walked. its like....... bout an hour to reach the destinations.

on the way there,
a group of KIDS.. i mean kids !! acting ah beng cycling along the road. GROSS ! haha.
ming ren; band mate, scolded them vulgarities when the kid said "diao si mi diao" LOL !
dumb ass kids. they keep shouting "wu ji lai la !! " but yet they were so far from us =.=
they shld put a mirror in front of them and shout that. see who is the 1 bo ji. lol !! so dumb.
mingren took bus.. they tried to chase the bus. which dumbass would chase a bus ? if they
are really gangsters, put down ur small bicycle and get up the bus la. hahahaha. dumb asses.
hate kids acting gangsters now adays. lame =.=

anyway, tadaA !! am i gonna be a good photographer ??? YES !

happy birthday gay; jinhui ! sorry for its belated !!!

tuesday; 8/o7/08.

had this stupid humanities lesson with this farking tcher called mdm nurmah.well, i think that she DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO TEACH ! a HOD, eating snakes;slacking. yucks ! i wanna be humanities tcher too. i've learnt how she teached us.*give them some work and ask them to shut up. or ask some questions regarding the topic* everyday "keep quiet ! sshhh ! keep quiet !" and her "shhh" sound like spiting saliva. LOL! i wanna be a teacher :D

look at the ass face :DDDD * i hate her *

our sleeping lesson. poor mrs foo; our maths tcher. having to teach a dead class :(

went over to dear's place after bathing. he treated me a FREE LUNCH :DDDD
ate hokkien mee ! yummy. but i missed my meat ball soup and pork chop. haha !
well, went to dear's hse to watch DVD *body19* well, its a NC16 movie. its nice !!
nothing really sexual nor scary ! just the breast =.= ...nothing strange. the story was
superb !! *fly me to the moon* haha. kinda roller coaster story line. good to watch ! :D

haha. played fire woman with dear's sisters. while amandis came to have dinner.
tomyam soup ! :DD

watch out for my feather duster host !!!!!! i look ugly. alright :(

wednesday; 9/o7/oo8.

had this super huge rain in the morning when leaving the house. damn huge ! with thunder plus lightning !!!!! i didnt dare to walk in the rain at first. bcuz of the lightning, i was so damn scared that i'd die in a freeze mode. thinking while running "what if i got lightning strucked?!" haha. i still thought that im really gonna die T.T went to school and hanged my socks ! haha :D smelly socks ! walked bare footed in class while the shoes were soaked.

had my N lvl oral in the afternoon in the school library ! it was damn cold and nervous. overall, i think i did kinda well or its acceptable la. haha. the examiners kept smiling la. so nice. i only liked the conversation part. lol. my reading got JAMMED !! cuz i was too nervous then i dont know why i kept reading the sentence over and over again. lol die... picture was fairly ok. bcuz i didnt know how to answer the examiner on a question. haha. conversation was fun.

examiner: what would u do if u could spend a day with ur family?

me: maybe plan for a dinner. *stunt*

examiner: would u cook it on ur own?

me: uh ! i dont know how to cook....

examiner: *laugh + smile*

me: maybe in the years, i'll try to cook.

i cant believed that i said that i didnt know how to cook ! anybody gonna laugh at me ?? :( im gonna learn how to cook soon :DDD whoolala ! i miss my boy ! i'll see him tmr. i nid to eat dinner !! :DD

i miss my boy .

i miss rachel baobei .

2008-07-06T11:40:00.000+08:00

CABAL ! the boring. =X

went to tampines, while waiting for amandis and weilun, i bcame lame !

my fire fighter :D
look ! IM SO MAN ! im lovin it ! he's the girl.
lol. dear's circular head. so round !
while he was talking on the fone, i tried to eat the durian head. my mouth too small ....
i love u botak ! MUACKS !
haha ! he dont wanna act cute with me ! GRRR ...

someone is acting innocent ! hahaha :D

WENT TO CHANGI BEACH ! long long 1 time :D once in a life time. haha !

on our way ~

beach side . so peaceful .

its a bird ! its a plane ! NO its a vampire. *peep! all wrong. its an aeroplane ! fly me to the moon.

doesnt it look like maggi mee ? bee hoon ? thin noodles... ewww .

weilun, amandis, barbara, dear and me :D see the sunset bhinD ! cool :D

with mother; dear's mom :D she's damn nice.

the sun-set .

my love castle !
dear's mother teach me bad ! she gave me red wine. lol. 1st mouth was damn bitter !
didnt kno how to drink until dear said u have to roll ur tongue and taste the sweetness.
but its still bitter when it goes down !! haha. great experience :DDD

went to changi village and saw many ppl gathering at a place. we went to see.. its a group of puppies !!! damn cute la ! got bout more than 7.. bout 10 or 12 puppies roaming around !! cute sia.. managed to catch the 1 i liked. LOL he looked so forced !! :( we asked the owner whether they are selling or giving it away.. they were giving away !! but 2weeks later then can take. damn !!! someone booked this puppy !! :( !! he's cute leh ...im gonna pester the owner for puppy!
look at the innocent face !!! *grab the puppy !! :(

haha. amandis like this fat sleeping pup ! can even sleep on the arms. haha.

CHILLI CRAB !! yummy of crabbies ! im lovin it! ate chilli sting-grey and chilli sotong too !

had lots of fun ytd :D still searching for baby's POP pictures !!! will update them soon ! FUN AND AWAY !! im lovin it ~ haha :D love my boy.

2008-07-05T11:19:00.002+08:00

RELATIONSHIP PROBLEM SETTLED ! smiles :]
when browsing my phone's pictures, i found this ! haha. remember the happy
trip to bugis street with dear. his tanned hands ! black and white :D lol.

friday; 3rd july o8.
played in humanities class. hearing the bad bad mama nagging at us. bloody nurmah !
then bojun; china friend, made underwear for my monkey boy ! and a hand bracelet.
haha. cute right !!
my handsome monkey ~
dear pei-ed me msg in class. then no more quarrel liao :]
always look on e bright side of life ~ HAHA :D
zilian 1st b4 going to dear's POP night ! sooo ugly T.T

pictures on POP, will upload tmr ! no pictures now with me. :D

but i've got 1 !! dear and me ! haha look so cute :D however, my boy is super

cute and handsome in real life ! No GIRLS can snatch my cute boy :D LOL.

baby wore big bird suit. nah its yellow uniform as sir. shuai sia :D then saw a

video clip on their training. saw dear in the "show" so handsome. he look great in

videos ! looking so natuaral and smart. im lovin it ! * POP damn nice !! claps*

my handsome monkey face boyF . FIRE FIGHTER :D

hey ! look ! is this chio ? i like her eyes :D well, this is definately prettier than perviously.
hehehehe ! my creation. my signature on the forehead :D pretty lady !

yesterday; friday; 4th july.
DEAR made me cry 2 times in the night !! HAHA asshole boy. strangle him !!!!!!!!!!!
always wanna hurt me de. haha ! :( someone save me ! peter pan bully me !
but i still love him. im so silly ! :( haha ! felt so lost at times .

cant wait for picnic today with his mom and sis :D cycling and see sun set ! WHOOTS !

might be quiting CABAL ! its so damn boring now =X

blogger's word verification is pissing me off. bloody image the words so stucked tgt. HOW TO SEE ??

i miss dear.
i miss rachel baobei.

2008-07-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

so upset now :( quarreled with dear from yesterday. countless thoughts

of breaking up. but i couldnt. i find it strange, its not the girl who controls

the boy. its the boy who controls the girl. i feel so tight but i couldnt let go.

i must learn how to keep my mouth shut at times and think of what i had

done. twinneh talked to me in school today. she and dear had the same

horoscope; pisces; have great jealousy power, wants everything their way and

nvr say die. after chatting with her, i realised that dear wants more attention

like what she wanted from her bf. she controls him, like how my dear controls

me. so many matching stuffs. and my character is like her bf's character..more

to dont really ask much. he too, thinks that twinneh dont trust him whenever

she asks bout wad he did and all, like how i think that dear dont trust me !

:( but he really dont trust me. baby, u want me to believe dat u trust me ??

then u better have no doubt in me .

god took 2 days of happiness away from me. i bet tmr is a better day.

baby i miss you. why do u often doubt my love for you ? waiting for u, wishing

that u would know that i'll stay faithful to you. but u still doubt my love for u.

i dont expect much, not as much as u expect from me. but why cant u give me

what i want? you said i dont appreciate you :( and u keep pushing me into the

well for damn it. i climbed so far but u made me fall. untill now, i hadnt stop crying

every week. remember ? when i fall, flashbacks came into my mind, telling me

how sad my relationship was. then i began cursing myself and lose my confidence,

faith and love in my life. is this emo ? sigh. curse so much dat i hate myself so hard.

but i'll never let go bcuz i u to see that im faithful to u.

heart to heart talks havent worked. solved but unsolved the next day.

i wonder whether am i for you or not. i haven cure you, ur still insecure baby.

sensitive; jealousy. 11 months u still have doubt :(

im sure i didnt take the wrong step to love you.

but im not sure whether is it the right step to be with you.

heartbroke. i miss you. stop hurting me. give me room to breathe.

imma person who longed for freedom and happiness.

losing tears is an everyday thing in life. i love you . :'(

btw, there's 1 idiot who added me on msn ! whom i dont even know and i dont

remember accepting dat email address ! dat person claims to be a girl, and

bloody ask so much about me. ask me to show "her" my picture and all. then

asked whether im attached and all. like duh ! im attached and all. then "she"

kept asking bout me... i said i dont nid friends then "she" said i was rude.

like bloody fuck. i dont even know u in the 1st place what for ask so much about

me ? who is the rude 1 now ? i bloody block dat person. i doubt that it is a "she".

xiaoshamin_85@hotmail.com. bewareeeee ~

i miss my BOY

2008-06-30T20:55:00.001+08:00

1st day of school for new term !
after my 1 week mc, its schooling day today ! WOOO :D
well, i was suay-ed ! my school shoe... had ANT NEST ! too long dint wear
already then attracted ants uh ! irritated. took another pair of shoes and
found SPIDER in it ! i was damn shocked ! after killing those pest, i ran to
school. upon reaching the school gate.. i was exhausted. and damn it ! everybody
was singing the national anthem when i reached the gate. i checked my phone..
it was only 6.24a.m.. and im super late !! damn sad. strolled to the main gate and
was marked late. so slacked. but when i entered the classroom, classmates greeted
me and asked if im well. haha i was happy :D well, i thought through already.
I WANNA STUDY HARD AND TAKE CARE OF MY DADDY !!!!!!!!! he's my looveee !
whoo ! whole school time was fun, including talking to my partner; cheston bird .

after school, headed down to tampines mall with the usual friends. :D talked and
walked till 5++ then headed home ! pei-ed jiaen audi then blogged. i've signed up for
the nuffnang ! hope there's earnings for me :D

well, there's N lvl english oral on the 9th of july :( !!! fear and scared !
gimme COURAGE !
i miss my boy ;D fit fit sexy cute boyfriend of mine. wahahahaha !
i miss rachel jie .
i miss baked rice, pork chop, icecream, chicken bolognese, chocolate & MOREEEE !!
life after 6 days of tasteless food cuz of fluuuuu ~ IS GREAT ! :DDDD
i'll study and i'll live !

2008-06-27T17:04:00.000+08:00

Friday; 27june2oo8.

hahahhaha. 1 whole week of MC ! while... i also suffered la. not say mc means

shiokness at home.. lol. dunno why i so suay la.. 5 days of eating flu medicine

still dont cure ! wednesday;25th, went to the polyclinic with mom again. this

time was another doctor. he check my temperature and all.. and said dat i was

still sick. having fever. and the lumps on my neck didnt go away, so he said that

its a severe infection and gave me some anti-biotic[dunno how to spell =X]

wahh.. means quite serious oh.. after taking medication for 2 days, the lumps

slowly reduced :D so happy. but the flu is so damn it ! i cant breathe thru my

nose la. yucks ! vomited for 2 nights straight. tuesday and wednesday night..

woke up with a full stomach, vomited twice and stayed up till 4am :( so sick !

drank lots of chinese medicine. hoping dat i would recover. hehe :D but there

are alot of air in my stomach still !

toots ! dear msged me saying dat he can POP :DD whoohoo. means more time

to spend with me le . wahahah. so proud of my boy, fire fighter wor. lol !! :DD

loveeee him lots ! ok.. waiting for the pig to eat then go home -.- HAHA .

i will survive ~

2008-06-23T18:12:00.000+08:00

sunday; 22june2oo8.
happy 11 months with my dearest boy !
went to find dear and his mom at tampines. :( i had this itchy thingy since
saturday, a day before. damn itchy. like.. how many dots means itch like
mosquito bite. like so many bites on ur legs. saturday, it appeared on my
legs but sunday, it appeared almost on my whole body. excluding neck and
face. i was so scared. haha. at least i ate pork chop with dear :D YUMMY !
then went to his house to sit around while waiting for him to bathe. meeting
amandis, his meimei and her bf to buy bikini. lol. wanted to go for a swim uh :D
:( the itchy thingy went on and off. so itchy laaaaa ! dunno why :(

my finger there.. 1 whole patch. my middle finger was damn swollen .
baby wanted to bring me to clinic to see the doctor. but i refused. sorry baby.
its not dat i dont wanna listen to you, its dat i dont wanna spend ur money :]
u treat me too good le. but i dont wanna spend ur money. 30-60bucks was like..
EXPENSIVEEEEE ! i sick and all dont see doctor de. fever 40degree sleep at home.
super woman ok ? :DDD just pray i dont die nxt tym can alrdy :X
baby then sent me home by cab frm tampines. then he continued his journey to
eunos mrt station. bcuz of my dat itchy stuff... dear was late for camp :( sorry dear.

reached home and told my dad and bro bout wad i've got. bro said dat its a diesease.
i was like.. WAD ?!?! will i die ? lol. but bro got it too. he spent 50++bucks for visiting
the doctor. ex leh.. i dont wanna waste money so i ate his medicine. and im fine now :D
it will spread to the entire body within 3 days if not taken medication. either eat tablets
or get an injection to cure. scary leh. if not cured till it spread ur whole face, it takes years
to cure it. powerful diesease.... RAWR ! u aint gonna eat me. i hope so.... anyway,
bbye itchy diesease ! they called it "hong mo" in chinese. english i dont know. its due
to heatiness. plus i dont know why i got this 2 swollen stuffs at my neck. read moreee.
sooo all muz eat healthy ! :D

monday; 23june2oo8.
wahh. cant sleep the whoooole night ! having major problem with my nose. like damn
block nose ! damn really dint sleep thru out the night. damn sad la. it was like... a few
hours before school time :( holiday is goneeee !
woke up at the usual time for school. bro asked me not to go for school as the thing at
my neck grew bigger. so mom took me to the polyclinic in the afternoon. wahh. spent
whole 4 hours waiting for my number to be called and all. :( lol. i told the doctor
everythinngggg ! sorethroat, bad flu, itchy diesease yesterday, fever yesterday, and
the two swollen stuffs. i had to go for blood test lor ! i tot i was going to die when doct
says dat i might be suffering from throat infection. so ya. after everything. its throat
infection ! :( hope those lumps will go off. i had high fever when i was in the clinic.
bcuz of that fever, i had 3 DAYS MC !!!

yeah its mc.. but sad la.. wednesday got water soccer. i participated lor !if im well on wednesday, i wanna go for sports day; aka cross country, run the whole reservoir. hehe. exercise is good. my medicine :( so many ! lol.. like im gonna die anytime .

my flu is damn bad. cannot blow them out. :( bad flu made me cannot sleep. sad.

xiangxiang please get well. u wont die :D you still have to spend ur whole life
time with ur family and your love, peter pan pan pan :D ~i will survive~
ala. i think too much. X.X

2008-06-20T11:14:00.000+08:00

yo hoho :D bro bought new LCD screen for the computer. its 19inch. lol.
better than the previous fatty screen duh ! wahahahahhahahahahahah !

yesterday, thursday 19june.
woke up at 5am++ in the morning. viewed my sms and saw yinjie's msg !
he said... 8 puppies are putting to sleep, wanna adopt? i read liao jiu so
happy sia !! LOL. keep msging him.. but 5am.. he's sleeping. then msged
dear dear till bout........6++ ? haha. then i asked daddy and bro about the
dog in the morning bout 7am. then dad didnt say no !!!!! in fact he asked..
"is it some kinda stray dog ?" then i dunno. he dont want stray dog. RAWR !
then he said he want a male doggy. :D i was damn so so so happy. then didnt
sleep till 11am. LOL too excited duh ! then msged yinjie.. get all info then i
sad. cuz the owner said that it will grow till very big ! *mongrel* is its breed.
then awww ! angella also knew and she was also interested so we both contact
each other. then angella called the owner to ask if we can take a look at those
puppies. but the owner lives at.... far place leh :( plus.. the puppy is 3 days old.
hard to keep. then i just forget it lor. den daddy came back asked me why no
doggy. lol. den i explain to him. BUT I WANT PUPPYYYY :(

then went out to katong with jiaen and singhong twinneh. guanshen brother
dont wanna go play lan with us :( sad luh..... yeah. he'll feel bored. i understand.
then played audition. lol. bored duh ! okok la. then we went home after that.
tadaaa.

sad lor. school is reopening soon ! real soon !! its like... 3 more days ?
and i have not enjoyed my holiday ! so damn it :( SADDDDDDDDD !!!!!!
help meee . i dont wanna study :( sob sob sob sob. rawr ! sian- nesssss.

im waiting for my boyyyy !!! :D
please book out quickly.
hope dear no confinement. his bunk mate smoked .. -.-
missing my boy !

2008-06-18T09:50:00.000+08:00

haha. opened my email on msn and saw those chalet photos we too

during chalet ! monday; 9june2oo8. :D thanks pamelaaaa for the photos !

but... muahahaha.
caught gambling uh ?

those gamblers.

the whole table :D

haha. flour throwing ! senghuat, sihui, sophia, pau and jinhui. haha :D

from top left to right : guanshen bro, pauline, jinhui gay, sihui, pamela.
bottom left to right : singhong twin, me, sophia, grace and senghuat.

gay's very dirty leg !

this is when im at the bottom, then twin, bro then gay. fat sia. lol ! got pillow in between us ^^.

time for possing !! :D act cute and all.. 1-10 .

lol. me and twinneh making pig face while brother doing horse face. i look super ugly :( lol.

lol. those no evil stuffs :D

lastly, going home. me and pamela. i know i look ugly :D hahah !

TADAA ! go play cabal liao.....

i miss my dear !!!! :D

2008-06-15T23:09:00.001+08:00

friday; 13 june.

was hell ... quarreled with dear again when he booked out. so sian ..
said wanna pei him go hospital to get mc and all. but in the end i dunno
where and wad time and all then dint get ready. then he no mood. say
i treat game more important than him . :( then he reached home.. ask
to meet earlier. he say he wanna chiong game.. not happy that my lvl
is higher than him alot. sigh.. said properly the day before.. but the mind
keep coming back the next day. so sian ..then i angry. dont wanna see
him.

saturday; 14june.
dear had duty frm 7.30am till 2++pm if im not wrong.. then throughout
the whole duty time, we are messaging and solving our problems. -.-!!!
it didnt work duh .. so sian.. work abit.. then fail after that. haha and he
said i sound so xia lan. that hurts really bad .. :'( 1st person to scold me
that.. and its my boyfriend. i really had no comments.. met up at 5++ to
talk things out. by that time.. i really wanna say "break" to him.. but it
ended up, "move on" :( ya.. moved on.. sigh. will game quarrels repeat
again ? i dont know. but i still have to trust dear :( sad .. then we went
out to plaza sing with amandis, weilun, alan and melvin after that. yeah.. had fun :)
ate carls junior. had the bacon dunno wad dunno wad chicken burger :D
yummy.

fries ! the fries were... great ;D

small, medium and large fries. their large is .... extremely large . haha

cute star ^^.

i cant forget the 1st time eating carls junior . its from hazel... just kinda disappointed after thinking of the past. it all suck now .

haha. i know dat my phone camera is lousy. dont laugh .

blablabla. then slack around.. cant get to play pool.. so sian.. all close shop

so early..so we went to eat some soya bean curd. haha too sweet ! later

got diabetics. then we went home at 3++ am. haha. reached home at 4 plus.

i made baby cry on the way home :( sorry baby. i just think too much. is not

that i dont trust you. is i cant let go.. all the happenings are talking in my

mind. :( so sorry. but after u cried, i felt dat u are so sincere in changing .

thanks dear. but sorry. im just scared and tired of quarreling over games.

afterall, the night was fun. i hope theres more of these coming into my life ^^.

sunday;15june.

wahh. just realised that school is reopening so soon ! cannot make it :(sad sad sad.

i miss my dear. went to tampines to have lunch with him and his mother.

then went to his house to watch some movies. haha. just fell asleep while he was

preparing his things for ns. lol. nice to sleep leh :Dmeow. then he sent me home.

thanks baby. i loveeeeeeeee you .

just got scolded from my brother. LOL ! like what the fuck. hey hey, nobody can

succeed in changing my attitude. i live to it baby ! :D hahahahahahahhahahaha.

i hate it when people came to me and start nagging at me. that really sucks ok ?

say it once and no more. thats real irritating duh. dont ever compare me with my

cousins. they dont have a life, while i do ! my life is not to obey instructions as far

as possible. yea yeah. i just dont wanna hear naggings ~ :D

blablabla. anyway, im useless. so dont compare :DD

i miss rachel baobei :(

i miss dear boy :(

i miss going out with the cliques .

2008-06-12T10:04:00.000+08:00

wahaha. relationship problems settled again ^^.
had fever yesterday. lol.. went up to 39.6degrees. sat at home and ate
panadol extra . felt alot better after 2 hours, it went down to 38.2degrees.
cool uh ? yeah then chatted with dear over the phone and all. then fine, ok
already ;] ...
aww. miss going out with my cliques. bring me out soon babiessss !!!
im bored at home. play too much then get sick :( takecare of ur healths,
everybody :D dont fall sick like meeeee. tadaa ~ cabal time :(
boredddddd ~

i miss my dear boy ...

2008-06-11T10:47:00.001+08:00

:'( had conflict with boy ytd . sadded . baby, i wanna take back my words
pleaseee ... i chiong cabal for wad i wanna achieve in game, not for guild le.
i play for fun.. no other meaning le. :( i dont wanna quarrel bcuz of game liao.
wadever we promised about, didnt work . it all didnt work . we still repeat it
again ... the guild meant something to me.. im very lonely without the guild.
like .. nobody wanna talk to me. i can only talk to you. but only at night .
i have no friends. no friends . tell me which friend is for real ? i treat the
guild as friends in game. not more. do you trust me ? do u understand wad
i want ? its always u, wanting to quit. nvr think bout hw i feel :( if u quit,
i still can stay meh ? they dont take up time away from you baby.. i chat to
you more than i chat to them when ur playing.. u are definately more
important than them.. duh ! its kinda basic friendly manner when u see
some people from the guild, u stop and say hi . which u dont like me to do .. :(
if u r not playing cabal after pop, then i see no point of u chionging now ..
cuz u wont wanna play liao. what for waste time now ? :( dear dont jealous
of my level.. its just a game. i wake up le. i wont get jealous. will you ? :(
yeah, just a game. no point being jealous for a game. dont eat me up :(
i miss you .
life is so empty without you ~
miserable . will i get to sit on a bike ?
friends dont stay with u forever. on the other hand, a friend is still denying
about everything . ta ma de . suck cock ! STEPPER ~i guess i know why
many people dislikes you ! cuz ur a big fat liar. i opened the wrong eye .
who are for real ?