♥ --Wednesday, July 02, 2008
PeterAsclepiusChoy IS MINE<3 muahahaha ! :D
so upset now :( quarreled with dear from yesterday. countless thoughts
of breaking up. but i couldnt. i find it strange, its not the girl who controls
the boy. its the boy who controls the girl. i feel so tight but i couldnt let go.
i must learn how to keep my mouth shut at times and think of what i had
done. twinneh talked to me in school today. she and dear had the same
horoscope; pisces; have great jealousy power, wants everything their way and
nvr say die. after chatting with her, i realised that dear wants more attention
like what she wanted from her bf. she controls him, like how my dear controls
me. so many matching stuffs. and my character is like her bf's character..more
to dont really ask much. he too, thinks that twinneh dont trust him whenever
she asks bout wad he did and all, like how i think that dear dont trust me !
:( but he really dont trust me. baby, u want me to believe dat u trust me ??
then u better have no doubt in me .
god took 2 days of happiness away from me. i bet tmr is a better day.
baby i miss you. why do u often doubt my love for you ? waiting for u, wishing
that u would know that i'll stay faithful to you. but u still doubt my love for u.
i dont expect much, not as much as u expect from me. but why cant u give me
what i want? you said i dont appreciate you :( and u keep pushing me into the
well for damn it. i climbed so far but u made me fall. untill now, i hadnt stop crying
every week. remember ? when i fall, flashbacks came into my mind, telling me
how sad my relationship was. then i began cursing myself and lose my confidence,
faith and love in my life. is this emo ? sigh. curse so much dat i hate myself so hard.
but i'll never let go bcuz i u to see that im faithful to u.
heart to heart talks havent worked. solved but unsolved the next day.
i wonder whether am i for you or not. i haven cure you, ur still insecure baby.
sensitive; jealousy. 11 months u still have doubt :(
im sure i didnt take the wrong step to love you.
but im not sure whether is it the right step to be with you.
heartbroke. i miss you. stop hurting me. give me room to breathe.
imma person who longed for freedom and happiness.
losing tears is an everyday thing in life. i love you . :'(
btw, there's 1 idiot who added me on msn ! whom i dont even know and i dont
remember accepting dat email address ! dat person claims to be a girl, and
bloody ask so much about me. ask me to show "her" my picture and all. then
asked whether im attached and all. like duh ! im attached and all. then "she"
kept asking bout me... i said i dont nid friends then "she" said i was rude.
like bloody fuck. i dont even know u in the 1st place what for ask so much about
me ? who is the rude 1 now ? i bloody block dat person. i doubt that it is a "she".
i miss my BOY
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