none belongs to me..maybe the difference between me
here or gone is nothing..i dont know what i want..i need
someone who can talk to me..someone who can accompany
me when im bored..regrets..i've let too many people down.
sigh..rachel and him..im still thinking of the past..it just
cant get off me..i really feel so bad..one and only..none
can replace it..never ever.. plus im sorry rachel..she cried
bcos of me..im so useless..i cant make her happy now..
i feel that im so like an extra beside singhong..whenever
she meet her bball friends..i dont know anything about
them..then im just left aside..walk away..cant do anything..
but i just kept quiet..just feel very sad..dont know lar..
when they are present..im invisible..not blaming them..
maybe i should just go..

went home..lock myself in the room..dad keep knocking on
the door..i open..he scold me..saying why should i lock the
door..then maid came in take thing..fuck! he scold me bcos
of her..normally he wouldnt care about me..but bcos she and
me quarrel..then she dont wanna talk to me..then my dad
help her..but why? what the hell i did wrong by being alone
in the room??..he scared i kill myself? LAME..i die he also
dont care de lar..everytime only care about her..that idiot slut.
i hate her to the core..i've been listening to her from young..
she treat me like an idiot..yet i treat her like a mom..its a
mistake!.why?? sometimes i just hate being me..
nothing belonged to me..nothing is mine..nothing cares..

not say i dont want the band anymore..is that im very
tired..i cant do anything..greatest regrets..being an asl..
but cant teach sec1..i cant do anything!! im so stupid la..
stand infront..tell them to blow..they dont want..i've been
making myself look like a fool for a long time..almost 1 year.
but till now they are nvr improving..maybe only yinjie..but
his scales are not good at all..i hate sectionals now..i hate
taking..cos seniors and juniors got seperated..then need 2
diff groups..i took sec1s..but i really dont know what to do..
im really like the greatest fool..im angry plus damn
disappointed..i did think of MIA-ing..but..yinjie keep asking
me to go..im really having hard head..


give me a break..i want to stop thinking..please..
just feel like sleep and dont want to wake up..
stop me from getting hurt..and stop me from hurting others.
im nothing. a piece of paper..when useful..draw on it..
when useless crumple it and throw away.. or neither useful
nor useless..drawn and being left alone at a side..
08.57pm

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